ok...so i threw it at the wall.


ok.
so i stopped going to crochet class

kind of because

the woman scared me a little

and kind of because it felt

futile...

so i tried to figure it out

on my own

from what i had learned

and books on hand

and yeah,

i did throw it at the wall

once.


but then it worked.

its a little whatever in places,

a little loose cannon and wacky

but hey.

whatever.




i have been
working on cards
either for our own use
or to try to sell
at a booth this summer
that i was thinking about...


and that's what i have been doing.

you?





a new addition....



please welcome
a new addition to our family...
her name is
esther...
and she seems happy to be here,
the kids have welcomed her quite warmly.

however,
it is cold here
and i think she may need a hat.

where were my knitting needles again?


fresh as a monday morning.


it is monday
and sunny
and not so cold...

i am starting fresh
and new...
i am not letting this work related
dilemma suck me down any longer,
there are aspects of it that i have
no control over
and i am just going to have to
accept that
and keep going.

things i am currently loving:
falling in love all over again with this cd
reading this book
jolly ranchers
orange floats
my son seven's new re-enacting of what his
idea of what a movie kiss is...by smooshing his
head againt mine and moving his head back
and forth
eleven's cute-as-a-button haircut...
and how happy she was that she could donate her cut hair...

its monday.
and there are so many things
to be excited about.
i feel spring coming, i think.

trivial tuesday

well..
things are still kind of up in the air
for me,
decisions have been made
and steps have been taken
but they have not led to any
tangible resolution
yet
but i am feeling better about things...

i know this all sounds very cryptic.

it is nothing really, really serious...
it is more of something that is hard for me
because although it affects me directly,
i also feel that whatever actions i choose
to alleviate my own situation
may cause stress for someone else
which i don't want to do
but may have to
whether i want to or not.

so.
anyway.

in lighter news,
here is the blanket that i have been
working on since SEPTEMBER
that was supposed to be a CHRISTMAS PRESENT
but ended up being a bag with
various unfinished pieces and a tag
attached reading "please remember
the importance of
good intentions"


the color is way off in the first two pics,
you can really only see the true green of the blanket
in the last pic.

now just to sew in all the ends.
ack.