friday i'm in love...with friday


date nights with the cutest boy in the world...
sharing hickory chips and spicy ranch dressing
and holding hands
while the guy at the next table
accidentally
sets his menu on fire...

looking forward to a kid free night
and a house to ourselves
to do what we want
where we want
:)

sunshine and a good hair day

thick black tights and tall black boots

deep red lipstick and pale white skin

happy friday...
xo

tuesday truths


* i hate taking my kids to the dentist
more than they hate going

*i am so ready for spring...

*i am a procrastinator...i am procrastinating right now.

*sometimes i think that i subconciously thwart our
financial recovery. i think deep down i have this fear
that if everything was ok with money, something else
would fall out of line...i'm used to worrying about money.

*i have been craving garlic...garlic bread, fresh salad,
onions...and it's only 7:10 am.

sunny sunday....


after an {expected} internet break
it is refreshing to come back...
i have to say that at first, while i was gone,
i found it very hard to stay away...

but our whole family was on this internet break
and i have to say
i was surprised to see the way they handled it...
and how calm and creative they were...
we read more, watched movies together,
talked and definitely laughed...we spent two hours
one night helping eleven make the diorama project
that was due Tomorrow (as opposed to the two Months
that he thought he had to do it...sigh)
i wish i had taken photos of it though...it turned out really great.

but, at the same time, it is good to be back.

this weekend has been a perfect blend of
sunshine, apple pie baking, cookie making,
movie watching, pajama-clad-hair-in-pony-tails
internet surfing to fill my bucket of inspiration...
i even put on eleven's winter boots and trucked
out into the snowbanks to take some photos
that have been nagging at the back of my mind
for some time...

a sweet sunny snowy happy weekend...
hope you had the same (with the exception of the snow...
unless you want snow...cause we can share...we have lots!)

weekends...and why i love them...


sunshine...and even though it is freezing outside,
it is toasty warm and bright in here...

sleeping in

staying in bed for two hours after waking
surfing on the ipad and ordering
camera charms and new books...

finishing this book, which i absolutely loved...
i have been out of the reading habit for a while
but since January, i have been getting back in my groove...
next in the queue...
this book that i am so excited about...

spending all day saturday watching movies
with 15 and S and occasionally 11...
benny and joon, i forgot how much i loved that house...

toast slathered with melted butter and jam

looking forward to yoga classes, poetry readings,
a valentines movie date and dinner out with friends
this week...

swimming upstream


that's how i feel
that's how i've felt
for the past year...
like i am swimming upstream
against the current
fighting the wind
every now and then
gasping for air
gasping for breath
looking for a reprieve.

the good thing is
the swim is getting easier,
the breaths last longer
and give me strength...
and i am reassured in knowing
that, at least,
we are moving forward...
slowly but surely,
inches at a time
but i know it is only going to get easier,
we just have to bear down hard for this final piece

and then
maybe
we can relax....