i had a meeting today with some very nice people about possible
and i feel like i blew it.
like i hmmm'd and hawww'd...
i stuttered and flustered...
i think at best i came across as
ill equipped, uncertain and
i keep thinking about the conversation,
running it around in my head in a loop...
what did i say-why did i say that-why didn't i say this
but there was a pivotal moment for me
when i was asked
what do you want to do?
that's what i said.
and the more i think about it,
the more i think
i could not have said anything more
but maybe i should have elaborated...
what could i have said...
i want to
take photos of toys and leaves and rocks and pugs and eggs and broken melting popsicles...
build a robot out of yarn and sticks and saran wrap and glitter
write a story for kids
write a story for grown ups
build a fairy house
create a miniature city
have grown up coloring parties
create paper dolls with intricate outfits and fancy names
make sock puppets
make a cartoon
build a life size flying saucer
make a paper mache T-rex named fred
sticker and glue and cut and paste and melt and sew and tack and tear and play.
i want to play.
and then part of me thinks...you know what...
maybe you shouldn't say all that.