i want to build a fairy garden...i desperately want a doll house...and a blythe doll...and a coloring book...{am i reverting in age? is this my mid-life crisis} oh...who am i kidding...i have always wanted these things.
today i am crampy, cranky and somewhat overwhelmed...not a pretty picture, is it?
i think i have seen the bulk of judge judy's. i am only getting re-runs now. sad.
but i would like to watch all of Modern Family and The Middle now from start to finish.
i tried Pepsi Next today. I didn't love it. I didn't hate it.
my boy had to go to court today as a witness in a drunk driving case... i was proud of him, like mama-bear-fiercely-proud of him.
If you know me at all, you will know that drunk driving hurts my heart a little (actually, a hell of a lot) even after all these years. and as my boy sat there being questioned, i was on the edge of my seat with concern, with pride, with surprise that this boy, this young man, is mine...came from me & his dad... where has the time gone?
and at the same time, a little piece of my heart was playing an old movie in bits and broken pieces... a reel of tape of another boy on that same stand and how i sat on the edge of my seat then in frustration and grief and disbelief that this had happened to us, that a walk down the road had ended up in this... empty gaping loss and seething furious anger and the paralyzing knowledge that there was nothing you could do to change it, to make it better for him, to bring them back, the bitter realization that you can't change time no matter how desperately hard you try.
this was totally not what i came here to say, but sometimes, tuesday truth does that to me.
