walking home after Dorian hurt my heart a little bit…all those trees :(
ice cream with a mix of warm caramel sauce & warm strawberry sauce in a waffle bowl has been my new obsession
my feet are cold
i am feeling a little burnt out. and maybe a little sad. i know i am usually go, go, go but lately…i just feel like i want to sleep, sleep, sleep. maybe it’s the change in season. maybe it’s too much ice cream.
great lake swimmers are playing at kings playhouse and i can’t wait!
i need a haircut
i literally just found my photos from my trip to fundy park…i wanna go back!
the fact that it’s 7:30 and almost dark out makes me wanna cry a teeny tiny bit. i am not ready! i want more summer.
and ice cream. i want more ice cream. sigh.
i have a bad habit
and creating distractions
and delusions in my head
that everything is fine
there are things i should be
i am an ostrich
with my head in sand.
(ok. who am i kidding…
i am probably not as tall as an ostrich
and the thought of burying my head
in sand immediately makes feel claustrophobic)
(and now i am wondering if
ostriches even do that…is that a fact?
or did i make that up
somewhere along the line?)
todays tuesday truth
is that i am trying to shake myself
out of this habit…
i am trying to make myself
face reality at least
once a day.
do one “grown up thing”
(preferably, one i have been putting off for a long time)
research an oil tank.
the not-so-fun stuff….
but still allow myself
time every day
to lose myself in a good show
or escape in a book…
to write or draw or paint.
it’s all about balance.
i went all morning thinking today was Wednesday
new favorite thing.
my pen bled a little on this card
which made me sad
but the ballerina bunnies?
they made me incredibly happy!
this sunshine just makes me think
of beaches and bare legs,
ice cream sundaes and parades,
birds chirping outside my window,
dirt roads, air shows,
getting lost on hiking trails,
bonfires and music outdoors…
sleeping with the window open,
driving with nowhere to go
and no one expecting me…
It’s scary to try something new.
But it’s also exciting and intriguing,
fun and interesting to push yourself out of your comfort zone
just an eensy-teensy bit.
I have been doing a lot of
new things lately
that have scared me…
but in a good way….mostly… :)
Change scares me.
I fight it, tooth and nail.
I always, always have.
But I think I am getting a little better.
(I don’t cry nearly as much, heehee).
In the spirit of “trying something new”
I thought I might push myself COMPLETELY out of my comfort zone
and try something that I have been considering for a long time
but did not have the guts to try…
I am also just coming off a 5 day cold so
it’s possible the effects of the children’s cough and cold
will have worn off by morning
and I will have totally chickened out on this whole idea.
I have created a Patreon account.
If you are not familiar with Patreon,
it is a way that I can share more of my photography and artwork
and maybe push my creative side a little harder
by forcing myself to be more accountable.
Patreon allows me to offer perks and treats for
anyone that chooses to follow me on that medium…
which means, I am forcing myself to focus
and stop spinning my wheels in 22 different directions.
If you check it out, please feel free to let me know
if there are things that you would have liked to have
seen offered as treats/thank yous…
and there is no pressure to sign up there.
This is really just an experiment, a new venture,
you never know til you try…
If you follow me on Facebook,
(not only do you know that I post WAY too much but…)
you probably also know
that I love music.
I can’t sing.
I don’t know a note.
I can’t tell pitch or tone or anything else…
but I know what I like
and I can’t go a day
without listening to music.
I have to have a playlist
on all night while I am sleeping.
I listen to music in the car,
while I’m painting, cooking, cleaning, working…
I just lay on the
couch or the
bed or the
and lose myself in the darkness
and the words
And I will listen to almost anything…I’m pretty open…
I can honestly say there is no genre that I refuse to listen to
anything from…though there are definitely songs that I don’t like….
(and…I hate dire straits. Let’s just get that out there and move on)
Here’s what I have been playing on repeat lately (and, um, I should warn you…I like songs that
say the eff word sooooo….just be careful if you are clicking links)
she is beautiful - andrew w.k. (I listen to this every morning loud as soon as I get out of bed)
seagulls stop it now - this is not actually a song…it’s a bad lip reading video but I have a weird taste in music and listen to this constantly as well. And, yeah, I still love what does the fox say sooooooo….I warned you. I have weird taste in music. :)
little bit stronger - leighton meester (i forgot about this song. I don’t listen to a lot of country but this song…well….it speaks pretty loud to me right now…so…it’s on the daily playlist)
And I looooooooooove recommendations for new music! :) Hint, hint…heehee.