friday i'm in love....

  • with pb&j on an english muffin
  • with salads full of sliced strawberries and ripe blackberries and thin asiago cheese
  • with the smell of rain on the night air through a window screen
  • lemon scented pinesol and pledge reminding me of my parent's house
  • giggles and shared videos with 17
  • listening to 13 chatter about minecraft and grad dances and summer sleepovers
  • the anticipation of a commitment free weekend still ahead of me...
  • these guys...always, always these guys...

did you ever have one of those mornings

where you hated every
single article
of clothing
that you owned
and
nothing fit you right
and your hair
took so long
to blowdry
that
you actually started
to break out into a sweat
making the hair damp and stick
to the back of your neck
again
and forcing you to examine
the futile exercise
of blowdrying.

a morning where you snapped at your husband
even though
he was just trying to be sweet
and your skirt felt too short
but you weren't sure what length was
acceptable for a person your age
and that pissed you off
that you even had to wonder that.

your razor was rusty
but it was ok
because it was so dull
it was unlikely you could cut yourself
no matter how hard
you might try.

it was just that kind of morning.

where i've been while i haven't been here...

 
    where have i been...

  
i have taken a few photos...and cleaned up the computer...reformatted one external hard drive and filled up another one...new operating system...playing with one note (which i think is really going to help me stay organized with weddings this year).


 i have been doing a little reading...loving this book




 a little bit of yoga...very little cleaning (not as much as i should)...



attended my last writing group meeting until the fall...which was fun...
and found me feeling like i had told too much about myself...like i had talked too much
and gave too much away.  i am socially awkward, i don't know why.  i always have been.
but it's good for me to push myself out of my comfort zone in that way.  right?



signed up for this (yet again)...last year i signed up for it with great enthusiasm
but then my husband had his motorcycle accident and my focus shifted. 
so when this option came up again with a different host, i thought, now is the time...

i am feeling like this is the down time...these are the moments i can breathe...
things are going to get messy and busy and out of control
very, very soon.
back to halifax tomorrow for another appointment,
two sets of engagements photos,
skydiggers this friday
followed by my first wedding of the season on saturday
and then...
well pretty much a wedding every second weekend until October...

so right now,
in this moment...
i am breathing in.
i am taking a moment.
before the crazy begins.

the second of june....

and suddenly,
it is a new month.

my husband's surgery is over
and he is recovering much quicker than the last one.
this time we knew what to expect
and this time,
it was only one knee
instead of two knees, a femur and an ankle
along with a dislocated hip
and a broken rib.

i am grateful to be home
and i think that this surgery has been weighing
heavily on me for some time now...
we had been waiting for it since January
and I think it was taking more of a toll on me
than i realized.

and now that it is over and we are in the recovery phase
i feel like i can start moving forward again,
start getting things done.

and it's a good feeling.

{i know i did not finish my may photo-a-day project
but i think that i will still do that by carrying over the themes into this month...
just to say i finished it.}