9:40 am

feeling kinda nauseous...to the point
where even my spelling is compromised
its only an hour later...
still no real word
other than that-"there is no word"
minor setback
which might delay it all is what is making me
a question from the finance company we are dealing with
when looking at the big picture
is actually quite absurd
but anyhow
that is (unfortunately) not my call
and would probably do them or me no good
to hear my scathing bitter anxiety ridden opinion
regardless of how
i actually am
pulling out my hair..one by one by painful one