i am trying to come to the page more often,
i'm feeling like all the other chaos and upset and anxiety and stress
in the past 8 months or more
has stifled me has been choking me has been holding me back
and now
that i see the pressure starting to lift,
the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel,
i feel energized and full of words and plans and goals and  spit and fire
and so i am going to try to come here first thing
every morning before my 45 minute trek to work
and just write happenstance,
just unload...expel...release...

i have missed this feeling.