eek. i'm it?

knitandpurrlgrrl has tagged me to do this
so...
here goes...

4 jobs i have held before?
manager of a record store
manager of a tacky t-shirt and jewellry store
hostess manager of mcdonalds restaurant
manager of a bookstore

4 movies i could watch over and over?
school of rock
green card
reality bites
dirty dancing

4 places i have lived?
heh...here
and here
and here
oh...and here.

4 tv shows i watch?
the apprentice when it is on
the amazing race when it is on
happy days on tvland
play with me sesame street

4 vacations i have taken?
hahahahahaha.
cabot trail in cape breton
moncton
new york
south carolina

4 websites i visit every day?
heh...
all of the ones on the side panel...
probably 2-3 times a day...
heh.

4 favorites foods?
grilled chicken salad from Big Burger
chicken stirfrys
toasted tomato sandwiches
oatmeal crisp cereal

4 places i'd rather be?
nowhere really..i'm a big homebody
but i would sooner be doing anything
than my current job...does that count?
no?
hmmmm...disneyworld
the library
italy
ireland

4 bloggers i am tagging?
i don't know...i've seen this on alot of blogs already
and hate to tag anyone who has already been it...
although i don't think i've seen
frankie
or manica do it yet
so...
there ya go...
but just if ya wanna...
i exert no pressure
:)

better late than never...

while i was taking my course
in early childhood care and education
i had four instructors over the course of two years
that have made a great impact on my life today.

i don't think they have even an inkling
of how often they cross my mind in the run
of a day...what would they do in this situation?
what was it they said about this kind of behaviour?
would they be proud of what i have accomplished
or would they think (as i sometimes do)
that i have more to offer
but i am only offering what is expected of me?

when i did my creative heroes for artists way,
they played strong roles.
they made it very clear in my two years there
that they beleived in me, in my potential,
my capabilities, my creativity, my intelligence...
and they challenged me to look deeper inside myself
even though i swore i already knew all there was to know
about the person that is me.

at graduation, one of them told me that they
expected to see a children's book by me
about a princess that wears camoflage
and "kicks ass"
that has become a strong "pick-me-up" tape
playing in my head...

i was reminded the other day
by one of them
of the concept of "throwing it out to the universe"
so,
because of that gentle reminder
and the influence of this list,
here is mine
thrown out the universe, to do with it, what it will...

"eventually" (a life list of goals)
1. learn to play one basic song on a guitar
2. knit a sweater
3. crochet a blanket
4. finish knitting six's blanket
5. skydive
6. go to a sarah mclachlan concert
7. write a story
8. crochet a beaded necklace out of wire
9. get my driver's license
10. bake a cake from scratch
11. sew an apron
12. build something out of wood
13. go to disneyworld
14. go horseback riding
15. make my own paper
16. knit a pair of pippi longstocking socks
17. paint a picture with oil paint
18. read all of the lemony snicket books
19. learn how to burn my own cds
20. make a loaf of bread
21. plant a vegetable garden
22. plan and plant a flower garden
23. learn how to make stained glass
24. make a quilt
25. learn how to hook a rug
26. make a new recipe once a week
27. mail a "real" letter, at least once a week

i reserve the right to add to this list as i see fit...
:)

mmmmm...books :)

books that i have read and loved at some point in my life:

anne of green gables

fall on your knees-- anne marie macdonald (if you read
nothing else on this list, make sure
you read this one at least...you
will thank me, i promise...)

the way the crow flies-- anne marie macdonald
the piano mans daughter-- timothy findley
elephant winter-- kim echlin
alias grace margaret-- atwood
the book of ruth-- jane hamilton
bridge to terabithia-- katherine paterson (young adult
but...well...just read it)
the rapture of canaan-- sheri reynolds
away-- jane urqhart
startdust-- neil gaiman
about a boy-- nick hornby
canadian living-- peter gzowski
from bruised fell-- jane findlay young
kits law-- donna morrisey
island-- alistair macleod

i thought about putting links to each of these,
but holy...that seems like a lot of work
and my hands are cold
and i only have a limited amount of time
before the rugrats stir from their slumber,
so...i may not get them linked...
i will link my totally-favorite-you-HAVE-to-read
ones, ok?
maybe...if the kids don't wake up...
and i find some gloves....
heh.

also...you may (or you may not) note
that most of these authors
are canadian...
i don't know why, i never plan it,
but i am inexplicably drawn to canadian
authors just by the cover alone...
i don' t seach them out,
they just find me...
i'm ok with that.

5 lives?

if i had 5 lives
to lead
what would i
choose
to be?
a teacher of some sort--kindergarden, elementary, something respected
and yet, fun...ideally, i would like to teach the ECCE program in my area

animator--or a person that colors in the animations...i would LOVE to get
paid to color for a living

driver of heavy machinery--like something that has a crane or a boom or
a big metal swinging ball on it :)
an author of children's books

a renowned critic/reviewer of books so that i could get FREE books sent
to me...sigh...

things i can do this week in order to be "doing" one of these?

i could work with my kids on themes, planning and hone up my childcare
business. i could join my local ECDA. i could do this one really, i have
the qualifications, i would just need the iniatitive and the sense of security
that this IS the path i want to take...

i could color...i love to color...i could buy myself a box of NEW crayons,
a box of 96 crayons...did you know they come in 96's now...not just 64's
i'm getting breathless just thinking about it, heehee

hmmmm...heavy machinery is a hard one....i don't even have a driver's
license, heh heh.

children's book...i guess i could just jump right in and write one....its not
like i don't have enough kids around of varying ages to be a test
audience...hmmmmm....

review books? i guess i could review what i already read...heh...not like
i don't do that anyway...heehee

creative affirmity.

My Core Negative Beliefs (or those-that-rang-true-to-me)

  • I don't have good enough ideas (or original enough)
  • I will do bad work and not know it and look like a fool
  • It's too late. If I haven't become a fully functioning artist yet, I never will.
  • I will find out that I'm not good enough.

Positive Spins
  • I am an original.
  • It's the PROCESS not the END PRODUCT
  • NEVER is too late...
  • I'm a goonie...i'm good enough for me :)
My Creative Affirmity

I AM ALLOWED TO NURTURE MY ARTIST.

I AM WILLING TO CREATE.

i am willing learn to let myself create.

i am willing to
E X P E R I E N C E
my creative energy.

i am willing to USE my creative talents.