forces are working against me.

its a storm day.
i have my own computer
not needing to be shared with the whole family
for once.

the hell with it.
i'm reading blogs.
i went for 2 days.

the more i thought about it yesterday
the more i thought,
this is where i get my inspiration and ideas,
this is what gets me excited and makes me think...
when i wasn't reading anything,
i spent all my free thinking time
thinking about bills, the kids i look after,
my own kids...i wasn't getting anywhere on "me"...
and it was bringing me down on top of that,
so...
i'm done...
i'm back
with
a
vengenance...
teehee.

day two...

well, this is the second day for me of
reading deprivation week
and so far, so sucky.

i called a truce with my alter ego
that i would do reading deprivation week
on some conditions:
i would only do it monday to friday,
not seven days.
i will post and read comments on my own blog,
its not like i am at the point where
the number of comments i receive is
excessive
(however, i LOVE my comments and all
the meaningful things said :) :):).

but it is killing me not to be checking up on you all...
i feel like a bad friend...
i will be reading everyones on saturday,
(or at midnight friday, teehee)
i promise.

i did finish knitting another whole dishcloth
however
in my free time.
and today i will write some letters to
accompany some cd's that will soon be
mail bound :).

bloody rotten hell...julia cameron is making me cross...

well.
this.
sucks.

i just read the chapter for week four of artists way
and it is
(are you ready for this?)
(cause i certainly was not)
(dumdadadum...)
reading. deprivation. WEEK.
week? week. week?? week.
w e e k.
weak is how i feel.
i work at home. with kids. at home. all kids.
and me. at home. all the time.
and they cry. and they fight.
and they puke all over themselves.
and they have stinky pampers that
occasionally go RIGHT up their backs.
and they pick their noses. often.
and they have runny noses. constantly.

i need support. i need to read.
i love to read. i need to read blogs, if nothing else.
if i don't read blogs for a whole week,
i am going to be soooo behind, i will have to
take the whole next week off just to catch up.

sorry...got lost daydreaming about the concept of
a week off...heh heh.

so...heres the thing...ya think all you people on my left-->
(or is it my right, i always get confused)
anyhow...you know what i mean...could you all
podcast your blogs this week and send them to me
and i'll train the kids to open them for me
and then i can just listen and know that there
is life out there, in the great beyond, beyond
the walls of stinky pampers and thick green mucus?

just thought i would ask.
heh.

ok..i know i'm late for corners of my home but....




i just had to share this...
my husband built them
on plans we drew up together...
there are bookshelves on the side of mine
(the one with the older computer, heh heh)

they are not finished yet
we are going to add shelving above
but i'm pretty happy so far...

and then the next venture?
possibly curtains
haha
or a finished stairway...
the possiblities are only limited by
imagination...
oh...and money, of course.