looking forward to menopause.

ok.
i was going to do a friday grateful list
or a weekly recap of things i have read/done/watched
but
the truth is
i am too damn cranky right now
to do anything.

there was no school today
the kids fought all day
i am pmsing
and i am so sour right now
i feel like i could chew my arm off.

so instead of waxing poetic about
the things i did enjoy all week
i am going to sit here and stew in my frustration
by blaring music into my head via headphones...
ear damage be damned.

heh.

SCORE...(teehee)

my sister in law is teaching
english is korea...
she sent us a box of goodies
for christmas
and we just received them this week...
behold...
(heehee)

these above are the coolest,
(well, the warmest, i guess...technically)
they have a gel inside them
and a little metal disc that you bend
and poof!
they get warm and you put 'em in your mitts
(if you are my daughter)
(if you are me, you would be more likely to put 'em
in your socks)
my own personal haul
hurrah for the socks...holy-sweet-softness!
like walking on little puffy pillows...
and the stripey slippers...i adore them...
and glitter glue AND glitter pens...
she knows me well

ten's socks and cool marker and hand warmers
i just adore the illustrations and the colors
and could NOT get enough of them...

i could have also shown you six's treasures,
but he is too fast for me...
he is mainly just a noisy, entertaining, talkative blur
most of the time...
:)

forces are working against me.

its a storm day.
i have my own computer
not needing to be shared with the whole family
for once.

the hell with it.
i'm reading blogs.
i went for 2 days.

the more i thought about it yesterday
the more i thought,
this is where i get my inspiration and ideas,
this is what gets me excited and makes me think...
when i wasn't reading anything,
i spent all my free thinking time
thinking about bills, the kids i look after,
my own kids...i wasn't getting anywhere on "me"...
and it was bringing me down on top of that,
so...
i'm done...
i'm back
with
a
vengenance...
teehee.

day two...

well, this is the second day for me of
reading deprivation week
and so far, so sucky.

i called a truce with my alter ego
that i would do reading deprivation week
on some conditions:
i would only do it monday to friday,
not seven days.
i will post and read comments on my own blog,
its not like i am at the point where
the number of comments i receive is
excessive
(however, i LOVE my comments and all
the meaningful things said :) :):).

but it is killing me not to be checking up on you all...
i feel like a bad friend...
i will be reading everyones on saturday,
(or at midnight friday, teehee)
i promise.

i did finish knitting another whole dishcloth
however
in my free time.
and today i will write some letters to
accompany some cd's that will soon be
mail bound :).