4 am grateful friday/saturday....


it is four o'clock in the morning.
i am now writing my grateful friday...
bear with me
as i may not make
a lot of sense.

-the safe arrival of my newest nephew, logan!
-snapping random pictures while driving and the surprise
of them when we get home...this one i particularly like
because it looks so gritty and blue.
-so far three successful interesting days of IBI therapy training
under my belt...and so far it is making sense to me.
-nana's house where the kids have gone to visit for the weekend
-having my husband all to myself for the weekend
-this cool new step for poetry thursday
-knowing that sofia and her family finally received their mini-swap package
from us...hurray! i hope they liked it :)
-other people's grateful fridays...
-inspiration that makes me so excited!
-the fact that i have been blogging for over a year
and i just figured out what permalink means...ba-hahahahahahah

5:18 am.
the sky is dusky and light.
the house is silent.
no cars on my street.
my bed is calling.

edited to say...check out my sunday scribblings...
if you wanna...you don't halfta...i'm not gonna be hurt...
well, not that hurt...heh heh heh...is this getting old yet?

melancholy and cloudy poetry thursday...


Dark Girl

Easy on your drums
Easy wind and rain
and softer on your horns
She will not dance again

Come easy little leaves
without a ghost of sound
from the china trees
to the fallow ground

Easy easy drums
and sweet leaves overhead
easy wind and rain
your dancing girl is dead.

arna bontemps

this poem was written in my journal
from about ten years ago...
i apologize if it is not copied in it's exactness
but i could not find a copy of it on the internet
to make certain that i had copied it correctly back then.

at that time
i was very drawn in
by poetry that spoke of females
and their lives or characteristics or personalities...
poetry that tried to capture some essence of the person...

and i had lost my best friend
in an accident
so that ultimately caused this poem to speak
to me moreso than it may have otherwise.

i beleive our experiences
color the lens through which
we regard all else...


book of dreams (one)

i have been doing some work
on my book of dreams...
this is what the cover looks like
(and i will apologize in advance for the
dark photos...the sun is not co-operating today!)

in gold, it says "happily ever after"...
the inside is brighter than in these rotten photos...
i decided that my "theme"
for the book
would be "inspiration"...
what inspires me...
poetry,
writing,
other artists,
ideas,
lyrics,
quotations,
that kind of thing...
the quote is hard to see
in this photo
but it says
"There are two ways of
spreading light:
to be the candle
or
the mirror that reflects it"
Edith Wharton

and that is the beginning
of my
book of dreams...

big bouncy baby boy!


my brother and his wife
gave birth saturday night
to a healthy, happy
big and bouncy
black haired
baby boy!

hurrah!

this is their first and
i am so happy for them...
they are going to be fantastic parents!

i have been there for the birth of two of my brothers'
children...the main reason i go is not only to support
my sister in laws or to be there to welcome the baby
into the world but mostly...
i want to see my brothers hold their babies
for the first time...to see them transform from
my brother to a father...
to see that tenderness, the amazement, the wonder...
the pride and the quickly-brushed-away tears.

guess i don't need to rush on that pink and white blanket
though...
heehee

edited to say: check here for my sunday scribblings entry for week five
only if you are interested,of course, i'm not trying to be bossy, heh heh :)

grateful friday...

- the adorable new look my blog is wearing
compliments of the talented joleen

- the kind comments left by blog-friends regarding
the new look :)

- being singled out by the co-ordinator of the
autism IBI therapy training i am currently taking
as having heard that "i was a natural" and that
i would have no problems with the training.

- a week of only one child to look after which
greatly reduces my stress and has allowed me
to regain some of my lost sanity.

- bamboo blinds stained dark finally bought
for two of our 5 living room windows...

-sunshine streaming through said blinds

- a conversation with my son "six" in which
he explained to me that all boys want is
money, cars and a girl. when i asked him
if thats what he wanted, he exclaimed,
"well, not a CAR! but i would like a million
dollars and one girl". heh heh.

- its the end of the month and there is enough
money in the account to cover all the bills.

- the stressful "hearing" i had to attend in regards
to a claim being made by a former landlord/friend
that we left the premises still owing money has
been held and decided on in our favor. i hate
confrontation of any kind, so i'm even more
grateful to my best-friend-who-happens-to-be
-a-lawyer who came with me and held my hand...

- the constant sweet support of my husband...
i don't know if it is just "spring" or the kids not
being here or what, but it feels like we just met
again...i love when that happens.

happy friday!