tardy.

(so you know...
this post kind of
got away from me
and i have decided to let it...
to not rein it in...
to not tone it down...
so...
bad words ahead.)

i am going to post for poetry thursday,
it's just that
the prompt made me remember a poem
that i wrote a long time ago
and i have been trying to find it.

it was the first thing
that came to my head as soon
as i read the prompt.

my other choice was to write about
R...because august 5 is a rotten day...
a fucking rotten day really.
and any prompt that asks me to
think about music
automatically brings me to R.
even if tomorrow wasn't august 5...
a fucking rotten day.

and i have been walking alot
with my new mp3 player
which i love
but also brings back
strong, tangible memory
of walking with R.
and sharing the headphones
of our walkman...
of family vacation car rides
sharing the walkman
and belting papa don't preach
in the back seat.

and seeing this video
made me laugh
and cry a little
cause i knew that i was one half
of the pair that once knew
where he scrunched in nose
and screamed when he
messed his hair.

so.
this is not what i intended
to write
tonight.
tonight.
the night before august 5...
which is really a fucking rotten,
rotten fucking day.

where-i-am-wednesday-week-2

so...
i have not been "here" lately...
but i have been here...

-crying on the couch watching this movie...

-completely utterly totally enthralled and caught up
in this book...you NEED to read this book...i NEED
to read her other books...
-happy to have finally finished 100 years of solitude...
it was worth reading...it was hard reading, but i'm glad
that i stuck with it in the end...
i will say there was one part at the end,
one visual,
that will stay with me...
and not necessarily a happy visual,
but will stay nonetheless.

-sitting in this chair, knitting like mad,
trying to finish a baby shower gift now that
i know the shower is this tuesday coming...
ack!
-in the gawdawfuluglykitchen trying to hash out decorating
details on a pitifully small budget...here is a small
yet scary
sampling of what we are working with...




can you say "ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww". blech. yuck.

-oh...and dressing WAY out of my comfort zone for a wedding...

where have you been?

an explanation.

i didn't do poetry thursday this week.
i thought about it...
i contemplated it...
and i realized
i don't really
care
that much about food...
i mean, i do,
but i also don't.

i like what other people write and say
and portray
about food...
i have just never, ever written anything
about it and honestly could not
pull anything up that felt real to me
when i tried...

so,
a picture of string beans straight from my garden
instead...
and an apology for the upcoming dark pictures...
it is cloudy here and heh, whatever,
they are ALWAYS dark anyway...
its not the camera, or the clouds, its me
:)


i'm borrowing acumamakiki's usual
friday i'm in love idea
(because it is also something i love)
(heh)
for today...

--my husband bought me this

i have wanted an mp3 player forever
and am hoping this will inspire more
voluntary exercise on my part...heh.

--my sister in law dropped off these books
for me yesterday which i can start reading
as soon as i finish the last 20 or so pages
of 100 years of solitude
--the aforementioned but now loving even more stella panacci cd

--this site that saltwater princess/bridget recommended and that i
was subsequently lost in for hours the other night...

--surprising myself by giving this movie a chance and liking it...
mainly because of this character...

--the fact that i just found out they are making a movie for one
of my favorite kids books, "bridge to terabithia" and my new
favorite actress is in it!

--a new magazine in the mailbox

--a picture that i don't cringe when i look at...heh...

just a kid swappy goodness...

i joined a swap called "just a kid"
and the idea was to send fun stuff,
toys, candy, etc
plus stuff the other person was interested in...
i received mine yesterday
from the brilliant mary ann
at follow your bliss

here is a shot of the pretty stamps
that were decorating the package,
and below, the cool set of vintage golden books
which i adore
and have been able to put to immediate use
:)

below is some of mary ann's art which is rich
and gorgeous and my pathetic photography does not
capture the way it truly should...

mmmmm...
the candy.......
i am now well addicted to jelly bellys...
heehee

and the toys!
teehee...
games and bubbles and jelly-like yoyos
and slinkys and a car shaped deck of cards...
so much fun!

i only hope that mary ann will be as happy with what
comes in her mailbox, as i was with what came in mine!
so much fun!

a-maz-ing

this is a direct order.
i know i don't do it often,
but this time i must insist,
for your own good,
that you immediately
go to this site
and check out this girl's
amazing voice
and poetic lyrics.

she played here tonight
and i just happened to be going by
where she was...
i knew instantly that i was going to
have
to buy that cd,
so rather than fight the uncontrollable,
i bought it
and am listening/loving it right now.

check it out,
you will not be disappointed.

at ease.