poetry thursday...where i describe

me as being me...
without a picture.

And here i stand
still wanting-
longing to be me
bitter in
enviable
eccentricity
electricity
of a new dimension
but the hold is still the same
the cold comes under
the same name
shallow and preserved
well-mannered
and reserved...

i stand before you in my straight
and narrow
imagining you see the curved
outline of my
being.

the real me.

this was written in 1999
as i realized i was mother to two children
and stuck in business casual clothes
and felt middle aged and responible.
i felt more matriarch than cool.

create a connection....

i have been a little slack
in this area
of following create a connection prompts
but i thought
that today
i would jump back onboard.

Jana was the host this time and it was all about your favorites....

List your favorite(s):

Flower to look at: lilacs

Feature of your favorite animal: i hesitate to admit this but (shielding
self from animal lovers) i uh, don't really like animals. any animals.
not overly. monkeys are ok. but the rest? no thanks. please
don't hate me.

Item in your kitchen: the big window

Item of comfy clothing: (or outfit, if you feel the need!) jackies jeans
(explanation: my sister in law gave me a pair of jeans that fit me
just right, and have just the right amount of stretch to make them
comfortable and still cool)

Thing to recieve through the mail: letters, letters, letters
(oh and magazines, and fabric...oh and cheques! and surprises)

Color on your favorite animal: heh. again. um. brown maybe?

Food to cook: (be forwarned, we may be asking you for the recipe if it sounds good! lol)
chicken stew

Ringtone style: hard rock or something from sesame street...like the two headed
monster...or super grover....

Wild animal (or fantasy creature, if you're so inclined): um. heh. monkey?

Outfit to dress a little girl in: docs, leggings with skulls, tartan skirt, black
shirt with mesh sleeves and bandana (luckily my daughter is ok with this)

Thing to do with snow: wish and pray and wait for it to melt!

Weather: after christmas, i hate winter...i like anything more than
post-christmas-winter.

this was fun
and i enjoyed doing it...
i don't know why i don't try these
more often
:)
thanks jana!

ok...so i threw it at the wall.


ok.
so i stopped going to crochet class

kind of because

the woman scared me a little

and kind of because it felt

futile...

so i tried to figure it out

on my own

from what i had learned

and books on hand

and yeah,

i did throw it at the wall

once.


but then it worked.

its a little whatever in places,

a little loose cannon and wacky

but hey.

whatever.




i have been
working on cards
either for our own use
or to try to sell
at a booth this summer
that i was thinking about...


and that's what i have been doing.

you?