unintended.

wow.
i have not posted since aug 7....
that was not meant to happen...

and yet...
we had a wedding of someone very close to us
so plenty of planning and decorating
and reminiscing and letting our hair down
and cleaning up and last minute running around
and lots of hugging with a little crying
and a bit of speech writing
with a dash of stress...
and falling asleep in the front seat of the car
waiting for the doorman and bartender
who offered to drive you and your husband home
at 3 am
to save you the cab fare.

and then i haven't been feeling well this week.

but i will leave you with some calming photos
taken from the cottage we were at monday night...
sigh.
deep breath.
relax.



tuesday.

today is damp and dark and cold.
i am slow
and sad
and still stuck in cormac mccarthys world
of destruction and little hope
as i just finished reading the road...

i want to crawl back into bed,
warm and safe
and sleep until my kids get up
and come in to ask me mundane things
like "can we have the pringles for breakfast"
so that i can scoop them in
beside me
and borrow some of their warmth
and optimism.

ominous.




i took the kids to a fun park yesterday
and spent the day with my childhood
(and current)
best friend
and my kids
going on water slides, in the pool and slamming
each other in the bumper boats...

this is what the sky looked like on the drive home.
and the funny thing was
no matter how many times i pulled the car
over to take some pictures,
the kids never asked me once
what or why i was doing it...
they just accept it now
that their mother
is odd.