SPC{reflected}{week 4}



what is reflected
{deflected}
back to me
when i look up to you...


tiredness
disappointment
hunger
thirst
waiting and expecting
needing and wanting
reserved and hopeful
optimistic and cynical
a chatty introvert

{alice through the looking glass}

i wish i could read you
could know you
could see you

i wish i could accept you
in all your sum of parts,
your flawed inventory,
your backandforth story.

and yet
i make do with what you give me.

more SPC here

5 truths...


~i love my kids...but i hate planning birthday parties...
i'm not sure why and it really seems to be uncharacteristic of me
but i can't help it...i just feel this sense of impending dread until
the party is over. it may be the major procrastinator in me.
i don't like deadlines.

~i'm not sure about my new haircut.

~i miss being the age where i didn't care what i wore
or how my hair was or how i was perceived...i was
the most confident then...but from what i hear,
maybe the forties will bring that back for me. i am
trying to bring it back a little bit myself, trying to
push myself a bit with an edgier haircut, a shorter skirt
than i have been wearing, a new pair of boots.

~i missed this girl.

~i watched the coal miner's daughter last night.
i stayed up until 3 am to see the end. and i am
such a sucker for that kinda twangy honky tonk
country that it is kinda sad {if you were to ask
my kids, that is}

SPC {reflected}{and late}

my life
right now
is a fast ride
with no stops
barreling through yield signs
hairpin turns
with only
fleeting moments of meeting
other cars
with barely enough time
to flash my lights
before i signal
for yet
another crazy turn...

but you are here with me.
sometimes you steer
while i look for something to listen to...
sometimes i navigate
while you nap
in the passenger seat...
sometimes we pull over for a minute
just to pull out the map
and reassure ourselves
that we are
right
where
we want to be
right now.