weekends...and why i love them...


sunshine...and even though it is freezing outside,
it is toasty warm and bright in here...

sleeping in

staying in bed for two hours after waking
surfing on the ipad and ordering
camera charms and new books...

finishing this book, which i absolutely loved...
i have been out of the reading habit for a while
but since January, i have been getting back in my groove...
next in the queue...
this book that i am so excited about...

spending all day saturday watching movies
with 15 and S and occasionally 11...
benny and joon, i forgot how much i loved that house...

toast slathered with melted butter and jam

looking forward to yoga classes, poetry readings,
a valentines movie date and dinner out with friends
this week...

swimming upstream


that's how i feel
that's how i've felt
for the past year...
like i am swimming upstream
against the current
fighting the wind
every now and then
gasping for air
gasping for breath
looking for a reprieve.

the good thing is
the swim is getting easier,
the breaths last longer
and give me strength...
and i am reassured in knowing
that, at least,
we are moving forward...
slowly but surely,
inches at a time
but i know it is only going to get easier,
we just have to bear down hard for this final piece

and then
maybe
we can relax....

5 moments of truth...


one.
i loved loved loved loved the poetry readings last week.
and no...i didn't read even though i carried a crumply folded up
into a square typed up poem in my pocket...it was far too soon.
but i am so glad that i went...it was inspiring and energizing and
and it made me realize that i don't always have to write the same
way...i might have some other styles i would like to try.

two.
i pushed myself out of my comfort zone besides just by going
to the readings....i talked to people, too.

three.
i forgot how much i like dragonlance books...especially by
these authors...

four.
i really really really want {and need} a snow day tomorrow...

five.
it's only 8:42...but i'm ready for bed.

thursday anticipation


tonight i am taking a step,
i'm putting myself out there...

i'm meeting a friend
that i haven't seen in a long time
at a university
to go to a open mic/readings...
i'm not good when i don't know what to expect
and the option is there
to sign up,
to read your own stuff out loud...
which is on my list of things to do at some point in my life
but something tells me
not today....
the fact that i am going is enough for today...

i'll take that other step
another day.

baby steps.