sunshine moments on a sunday...

• went out for drinks and munchies on friday night...sat on the upper deck, overlooking the water while sailboats cruised by and music played in the background...laughed a lot and felt reconnected and young again...
• our annual summer parade was held on saturday in spite of the rain...11 came with me, 15 stayed home...we met up with my brother and his wife and kids and it was so much fun...i forget how much i like to be with people with the same sense of humor...we all had a good laugh as the float with jet plane on it {but missing a little forethought...and measuring} came down the street and everyone had to duck or run to get out of the way...
• anticiaption of finally being able to read this book...i cannot wait...{and the trailer for the movie looks good, too}...and have this one as well...
• an extra day tacked on to this weekend...in anticipation of sunshine and getting the house clean today...leaving tomorrow open to so many possibilities...beach, walks, photos, long drive, ice cream, meeting a friend for coffee, sleeping in, starting the coveted books, journal writing...sigh.  the anticipation is almost as enjoyable as the day itself.

existence

i am trying to come to the page more often,
i'm feeling like all the other chaos and upset and anxiety and stress
in the past 8 months or more
has stifled me has been choking me has been holding me back
and now
that i see the pressure starting to lift,
the proverbial light at the end of the tunnel,
i feel energized and full of words and plans and goals and  spit and fire
and so i am going to try to come here first thing
every morning before my 45 minute trek to work
and just write happenstance,
just unload...expel...release...

i have missed this feeling.

weightless

i feel as if a weight
has been lifted off me,
my ribs expand
i can breathe again

i inhale the release
summer brings
long days
sunshine shadows on the pavement
slushies and freezies and waffle cones dripping
down the length of my arm
and the
sweet smell of clover
and fresh cut hay
on my morning commute.

i can breathe again.

summer lovin'

sweet summer heat
and a silent house...
this week has been a bit crazy
with a happy canada day
complete with fireworks
and a lost {and happily found & returned} i-phone
and sparklers catching our beach blanket aflame
{just a little, but enough to totally freak me out}
the rest of the weekend
spent napping
and de-cluttering
and attempting to placate a dog with hurt feelings
about the new kitten that has taken up residence
in his house
{and is allowed to go upstairs, where he has never been allowed}

i sit here now
at the tail end of a sunny sunday
wishing the weekend could be just little longer
wanting to savor it just a little bit more,
to wrap up the remnants like an all day sucker
to put in my pocket and save for days
like mondays...

empty

lonely friday nights
spent wondering if i was wrong
to want
time
to myself...
now that i have it
i no longer know what to do with it...
dark house
meaningless tv droning in the background
my breath heavy
my footsteps echo