breath in, breath out...

this is a hectic time of year
for everyone i'm sure
but again this year,
i'm feeling particularly stressed
because not only is it Christmas
and i am
not
prepared...but it is also my
wedding-editing-crunch-time of year
and i am extra stressed...
{feel free to go vote for her...she'd really appreciate it!}
and responsibilities for the office party
and you get a bit of a time bomb waiting to blow.

so reading things like this
and this
and thinking about what my perfect playlist would be
makes me feel better,
makes me feel less
alone...

deep breaths...concentrate on the important things...
the little things,
the things that matter,
the things you can control.

let go of the rest.

til debt do us part...

i am reading
and was surprised by
some of the questions
she suggests you ask yourself...

things like
what matters to you
what to you want...what do you dream
what makes you happy
what is the one thing you feel defines who YOU are
who do you respect...and why
where do you wish you were in your life
what do you think the future holds

i spent about two hours on this on Saturday morning,
tucked up warm in bed
with a mug of sugary cinnamony tea
and thought about these questions.

i have been struggling to get to the page
{pretty obvious by the scarcity of my posts}
and want to get back in the saddle, back on track
get going again
and thought i might use this as a bit of
jumping point...
something that i can look back on
and hopefully
see how far i have come.



two posts in one day!!

ok...

i know i already posted today but
my little girl is competing
on our own local maritime idol
and i am so proud
and wanted to share her video here...
if you like her, feel free to go vote for my girl...
i'd really really really really really appreciate it...

here is her video 



but you can go here to vote!

Thanks so much...did i mention that i really really really appreciate it!?

today i am

today... i am here...

today... i am breathing slowly
and breathing deeply
trying to find my way back
to me
again

today... i am slowly sipping
french vanilla black tea
with a handful of sugar
{quite literally, a handful}

today...i am giving feist a chance
and finding
that i like it

today...i am aware of the
leaves blowing outside my window
and that
although i know i should be
doing laundry
and getting groceries
my heart wants to stay in
this spot
by the window
daydreaming
about christmas crafts
and editing wedding photos
while listening to the
wind rattle
the window screens.