getting caught up

i am catching up...
finding my groove again
with sun shining in the windows
and fresh air in my lungs.

caught up on emails (for today anyway)
a little fearful that i may have bitten off more than i can chew
for this summer...
was planning on capping wedding bookings at
less than 12
but
heh...
am currently at 16 and just had two more requests today....

i just can't say no.

so...we'll see how that plays out.

spring is inside me,
it is in my veins,
it is beating in my heart,
it is thudding at my temples...
it is making me want to
plant and clean and plan and daydream...
it is invigorating me.

and i love it.

sickly...cough, cough, hack, hack.

just getting over 3 weeks of a rotten cold/flu
that snuck up on me
and put me down for the count....
wheezing cough
stuffed up sinuses
incredible cold sweats that left me drenched
and
total
loss
of energy...
no appetite
headache every god-damned day.

but...
the up-side of being sick
is how much you realize
you take feeling good
for granted.

and i am starting to feel better now
and the snow is melting
and the headache is a dull echo
and right now the kids are watching a horror movie
with their dad
all smooshed into one couch
and because i can't watch horror movies
(i can't even listen to them)
i am at the computer with headphones on
and 8tracks blaring
my favorite playlist
getting caught up on email and facebook and pinterest
oh pinterest, how i have missed you...

and i'm happy.
happy to awake and alert at 9 pm
for a change
(even if the kids do try to shush my coughing...heh)

tuesday truths

  • this whole heart palpitation thing is kind of sucking.
  • oddly enough, i am feeling both overwhelmed and underwhelmed lately.
  • i am desperate for spring
  • but at the same time, i hoping madly for the advertised snowstorm tomorrow to be big enough to shut the town down.
  • this is the first time i have done tuesday truths in such point blank form
  • i am not drinking enough water
  • {read:  hardly any water}
  • i have only slept 5 hours the past two nights
  • i need 8 hours of sleep every night.
  • this list has become very random.

spirits of joy

i woke up on a miserable monday morning
to ice cold wind blowing
wind chills of -27
blech.

i am ready for spring.

i didn't have time for a shower.
i barely had time to make a lunch.
but i did have time to check my email
and found out that i had won a spot
in this e-course

yay!

i had stopped by this new-to-me blog
and came across the contest...
and was so excited to get the email this morning
saying i had a spot...

this will be the journal that i use to create a vision book...
the first prompt included choosing a name for your book...
visceral spoke to me as i feel lately i am just skimming along the
surface of my life, partaking in much but focusing on little.

oh....and did i mention i was excited?
soooooo excited!
:)

today

today, i am here.
i am present in this spot...
rooted into my own being.
solid and centered.

yesterday was an extra day off
spent cleaning the house
and catching up on blogs
and drooling over this guy's amazing work.
the lighting, oh, the lighting.
i am starstruck...
{and have to add, that when i flickr-mailed him
a question about lighting, he responded back with
a wealth of information and links and i am always amazed
at how giving other photographers are of information
and techniques....it is so fantastic.}

speaking of lighting...this is another guy who
does some amazing stuff that always makes me
stare at his photos for a long time
trying to figure out the logistics of the lighting...

{it's not hard to tell the days are getting longer...
all i can talk about revolves around photography...
just ask my husband...}

so...now i have decided that i want/need/would love to have:

 but i did pick up this yesterday...
a new external hard drive
so that i can start the "great photo cull" before
the weddings of 2013 start...
:)

and in a bit of a related note, i have finally gotten on board with instagram
and am loving that it allows me to creative
in the moment...
which i need...
i find i get so worried about my "work" camera
that i don't want to use it for every day...
but my cell phone is always handy.
{which leads me to another want...i am very want-y today}

and because i feel like all i have done here is talk about
things i want
here is something that i had...that i loved...
mmmm...