leavin' on a jet plane...

when my girl was little,
she used to cry when that song would play.

yesterday,
i cried in the airport parking lot...
not even cried...i sobbed...
loudly
and somewhat out of control
after dropping my girl off at our tiny little island airport
so she could board a big plane
and fly off to toronto.

alone.
by herself.
first time big adventure.
for two whole weeks.

when it was time to say goodbye
i couldn't speak.
my throat closed over, if i tried to talk
it would have come out as a howl of
please don't go...just stay here...we can have fun...
i'll buy you ice cream!

but i knew that she had to go...
i knew that she was ready, i knew that i was over reacting
i knew that people go on vacations every day,
they take train, planes and automobiles.
they have fun, they learn about new places,
they learn about themselves.

they come back.
they come back.

she'll come back.

but my heart still hurts.
being a parent is hard.

is it ever going to stop snowing?

snow today,
snow tomorrow....
it's enough to make a sane girl cry.

i took a drive on saturday...
15 wanted to go see his friend
{who happens to be a girl}
so i put my camera in the passenger seat
and after i dropped him off
at his friend's
{who happens to be girl}
i allowed myself to get lost
on back country roads...

when i picked him up
he told me that they made their own version
of "burger love" at home
and that he helped with the spinach
(i am certain my boy has never seen spinach
before in his life, other than in a popeye cartoon
i am not sure that i have ever seen spinach...).

and i marveled at how they grow up
instantly
right before your very eyes.

the light was perfect as we drove home...
15 picked the music (nirvana for the most part, fine by me)
and i asked him at every stop sign
right?  left?  straight?
let's just get lost.
and the sweet thing is he totally put up with it...
even when i stopped the car
multiple times
to lay in the ditch and take photos
of farms
reflected in mud puddles.

i'm a lucky girl.
 

365 photo-a-day project {april 2015}

365 photo a day project...
while i wait and pray and hope
for spring...


friday i'm in love...

the sun is shining
the snow is melting
and it's friday
what is not to love

what else i am loving right now:

  • this.  seriously...how cute is that!  :)
  • happy belated birthday to this girl...i know i am late to the party (her birthday was in FEBRUARY for crying out loud) but i still have to say how much i love this girl's words and images. 
  • i found this song and fell in love...and then i forgot about it somehow...and then i found it again and fell in love ALL over again.  and watch the video.  for the love of all that is sweet and whimsical, WATCH the video.  sigh.
  • i haven't forgotten that it is still poetry month...and i know i already shared one by neil gaiman...but this.  oh this.  this has to be shared as well.
  • i started reading this list...and then clicked on a link...and got caught up in it...and clicked on another link...and by end of it i was overwhelmed by awesomeness...how have i NOT read this book yet!?!  can you explain this to me.
  • i have become addicted to solar powered toys...from the dollar store...but if you have going to have an addiction, i think this is a pretty sweet one to have...i even started a pinterest page for them :)