rainbows and watercolors
the other night
i was working on a new watercolor...
(and when i say working on, i mean struggling with...)
when i happened to look
out the window
and see this bright & shiny rainbow
over my neighbors house.
i really need to reconfigure my workspace...it's better than it was but i think i need more space.
i grabbed the camera
and ran outside
barefoot in the spitting rain.
sometimes
it's good to walk away
from what you are working on
and
get your feet wet
while looking for
end of the rainbow...
when i came back in,
i felt like my frustration
with feeling like i don't know what i am doing
with these brushes, this paper, this color...
why doesn't anything on the paper
match what is in my head,
why do youtube videos
make it all
look
so damn
easy.
anyway.
i felt better when i came in
and was able to finish what i was working on
with fresh eyes
and less eff words.
although...
i tried doing her feet different
and now she looks like
she is suspended in air...
sigh.
and one last photo...of the cat...cause...look at his cute little nose! :)
scatter-y
a friend/co-worker told me
one time
that i was very
"scatter-y"...
(and she meant this
in the most loving way)
(or...so i tell myself)
i had a lot going on at the time...
was going to back to school
and working part time
with 2 kids and all that
that entails...
and so, sometimes,
i would be late for work
or forget what time i worked
or show up for shifts
that i wasn't even scheduled to work...
hence the label
"scatter-y"
and i have not only resigned
myself to the fact that the term
"scatter-y"
does describe me...
i've embraced it.
i am not always like this...
and i think that a lot of people
would be surprised to know that i
think of myself this way...
in some areas of my life,
i am very focused & organized...
like at my "real" job and
when i did weddings...
(because let's face it...
there is NO room for error
when you are shooting someone's wedding...)
but today.
today i feel incredibly scatter-y...
like my brain is running in a thousand different directions.
there is so much i want to do.
for example...here are the things that ran through my head
JUST TODAY.
- i should try to create a coloring book...i should google how to do that...or maybe i should
- build a dollhouse
- take a wood working class
- revamp my blog/website
- take HTML/programming classes so i CAN revamp my blog
- knit that damn robot
- a 365 project of robots (add page to blog) (REVAMP blog)(HTML COURSES)
- build a birdhouse
- make cool backdrops to photograph my cards against (need to find reclaimed wood)
- revamp youtube page to match up with blog
- redesign etsy page
- blog 3 times a week
- what about all the birch tree we cut down...i had plans for that...i need a chainsaw...
- research what to plant in the fall
- i need a macro lens
- am i doing weddings next year or not?
- should i move the raspberry plants
- i need to build a pergola...what is a pergola...is that what it's called...or is that some kind of pasta? mmmm...i'm hungry. i should go pick some string beans.
- i should take a wood working class.
and this is all great...but i get so overwhelmed
then i don't know where to start
and i'm just spinning my wheels...
in a scatter-y kind of way...
& then I come here to tell you about the other night
when i ran down to the boardwalk
to take photos of the sunset
and instead
i tell you all of this...sigh.
well....here are some sunset pictures...heh.
waiting is so hard...
everything is growing...
but
just
not
fast
enough.
there are so many tomatoes,
but none of them are red!
there are oodles of cucumber flowers
and quite a few pickle sized cucumbers
but not big enough to eat yet...
the corn is officially taller than me.
there are strawberries
that haven't turned red yet...
teeny tiny green peppers...
i know i shouldn't complain...
i've had string beans at least 4 times
(enough for one person each time)
BUT I WANT THE DAMN TOMATOES.
i did get a handful of raspberries though
and that was pretty sweet
well
except the ones that were sour...
:)
whatcha readin'? {2017::book 7 - goal 24}
i know i said this before
and i don't even know why
i feel the need to justify myself
every time i read one of these books
but...i still do...
but these books are
such a guilty pleasure for me.
i love them.
there. i said it.
and i feel somewhat
sheepish about it
but i can't help it...
i love them.
i love her writing, i love the history mixed
in with fiction...or the fiction mixed with a bit of history...
whatever...i love the words...
tudor...katherine...court...aragon...perilous...loyalty...pawn...
maybe it's the covers
that make me want to apologize...
they slightly resemble bodice ripping historical romances...
and they're not! really...they're not...
well...there might be a little...
but there are also beheadings and
betrayal and secrets.
anyway.
i love these books.
without apology.
:)
5 ♥♥♥♥♥'s out of 5
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