tuesday truths...

i have a bad habit
of hiding
and avoiding
and procrastinating
and pretending
and creating distractions
and diversions
and delusions in my head
that everything is fine
when really
there are things i should be
facing…

i am an ostrich
sometimes
with my head in sand.

(ok. who am i kidding…
i am probably not as tall as an ostrich
and the thought of burying my head
in sand immediately makes feel claustrophobic)

(and now i am wondering if
ostriches even do that…is that a fact?
or did i make that up
somewhere along the line?)

anyway.

todays tuesday truth
is that i am trying to shake myself
out of this habit…
i am trying to make myself
face reality at least
once a day.
do one “grown up thing”
(preferably, one i have been putting off for a long time)
each day.
bills.
laundry.
groceries.
research an oil tank.
the not-so-fun stuff….

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but still allow myself
time every day
to lose myself in a good show
or escape in a book…
to write or draw or paint.

balance.
it’s all about balance.

whatcha readin'? 2019 {book 7::goal 25}

I probably wouldn’t have noticed this book
if it hadn’t been for Reese Witherspoon
(who I adore by the way and now I kinda wanna
watch Sweet Home Alabama again…)
and her Hello Sunshine bookclub…

Anyway, I digress…often…heh.

I will just tell you
that I loved this book.
Loved.
Like capital L loved it.
Her writing was beautiful.
I adored the characters and might have had a
small crush on Tate.

(To be added to my list of crushes on fictional characters:
Gilbert Blythe and Mowgli from the Jungle Book)
(Again, I digress…)

The writing, the story, the characters…
everything was just flawlessly and poignantly beautiful.
Go read this one.
Do it.
When have I steered you wrong?
Ok…there was that one time but
you promised you wouldn’t bring
that up again…
heh.
(what? oh yeah. I digressed. Again.)

5 ♥’s out of 5 ♥’s
NEXT UP: THE DRY - JANE HARPER

friday i'm in love....

♥ with feeling my fitbit go off with crazy happy vibrations of finally
hitting 10 000 steps again. I have been on a bit of lazy kick. But this
nice weather (and the inevitability of future dairy bar visits) has
pushed me back into action.

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♥ speaking of dairy bars…I made my first stop at a dairy bar
tonight as a reward for raking the lawn (with a rake that only had
about 4 teeth)…and ran into one of my best friends and her daughter
which made getting a turtle ice cream sunday THAT MUCH MORE FUN!

♥ this is so crazy. I just can’t even….

♥ filed under “things i must have or I will most likely die”…..

♥ the #the100DayProject I am trying this but not planning on posting everything
because then I end up getting overwhelmed and not finishing…but this is
one of the doodles I have done.

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wordless wednesday - that day i drove to the wrong end of the island by accident

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whatcha readin' 2019 {book 6::goal 25}

When I went back and looked at my quick “book-notes”
that I sometimes make when reading a book
because a) I am totally a geek and b) I immediately forget a book
after I have finished reading it so I always like to have something
to refresh my memory, I found this:
”The whole part about being in your 40’s and realizing
that this situation requires a grown up to handle it,
and realizing that YOU are the grown up” really hit home
for me. This happens to me all the time and I love knowing that I am not alone
in feeling inadequate and panicky and soooo not prepared.

Also
”Will my mind ever catch up to my face?”
which I just talked about with a best friend last night….
how it seems improbable that you will ever feel your age.

I definitely do not feel my age.
I’m not saying I don’t look it, but…I definitely don’t feel it.
somehow I thought at pretty much 50…I mean really…
I may as well say I am 50 now…
I would have thought that I would’ve felt
wiser…more secure…less anxious…confident.

Anyway. This is not to self diagnose my neuroses.
That’s a whole other blog post.
:)

I enjoyed this book. It was ok. The part about the threesome was…
surprising. Otherwise, it was amusing and relatable (except
the part about the threesome…just…clarifying…not relatable…haha)
I am not sure that I will go back and read her other books
as they are about parenting and I’m beyond that stage…
:)

4 out of 5 ♥♥♥♥'s

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