friday i'm in love

so this friday
i can definitely gush
about the new phone…
now that it has a case
and screen protector
AND
i have actually taken it out of the box.

i love it.

(what i don’t love is no headphone jack…just sayin’ samsung…)

but…
the camera.

i am loving the camera…
i am not really a big fan of super zoom photos
on anything so that didn’t really matter to me
but i like the option for wide angle
and for fitting more people into a selfie.

i’m still just playing with it all
and learning but
i am not disappointed with my choice.

other things i am loving
in random order:

• covered bridge sweet bbq kettle chips

• naps

• cucumber fresh out of the garden with salt & pepper

• the charlie brown theme pack i am using on my new phone

• the new dress i got from how bazaar

friday i'm in love...(where i ramble...)

(so i thought this was going to be the friday-i’m-in-love
where i gushed about my new phone
and the killer camera on it
and how much i loved it
but
i haven’t taken it out of the box yet….
not the samsung box…
the BOX IT WAS PACKAGED IN…

it came yesterday.

at lunch.

i am weird about getting new things
that i am really excited about…
i hoard them.
i just like knowing it’s there,
i could open it
but
maybe i’ll wait…
savor the anticipation a little bit longer…
books, magazines, new shampoo, a new series, new art supplies…
all the same reaction.

i like to have perfect conditions…
clean house, lots of time,
no distractions, showered,
full but not too full, not too sleepy,
etc, etc, etc.
plus my case won’t be here
TIL THURSDAY)

ok…that was a lot to say in a set of brackets.

what i really came here to tell you about
for my friday i’m in love
is have you watched the BBC show
Normal People
which is based on a book
by Sally Rooney
that is next on my list
but
ohmygawd…
that show.

(ok…small warning…
it’s a little tiny bit sort of how
i would imagine soft core porn
might be
but with a good story line
and no grossness
but still….
a LOT of sex.)

Anywayyyyyyyyy….
my mom doesn’t read this anyway.
heehee.

it’s set in ireland,
the cinematography is beautiful
and odd all at once,
i adore the characters,
the soundtrack….

oh. so good.

I had to watch it on YouTube
but you can also stream it from CBC

i know i already said it but i loved this series.
it was more than a show…
it was a mood…sometimes
when i read a book that i get lost in,
it sticks with me for days,
like i am in a bit of fog
but in a good way…

this was like that.

so…watch it…
just not with your kids
or maybe not with your parents
in the room…
and you might want to close the blinds.

Hahaha.
for the record,
I am debating deleting this whole post.

things i think i forgot i knew....

i was on my own
pretty much all weekend…

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i think
somewhere
along the way
i started thinking
that i was alone
maybe too much,
that being alone
this much
was a bad thing,
a failing,
a problem to be solved,
something
to be kind of
embarrassed about…
a void to be filled
with distraction
and conversations
and attention.

but doing that
is not making me
happy.

this weekend,
i worked on the course,
took naps,
cleaned the house,
watered the garden,
ate fresh cucumber & tomato & raspberries…
read a book,
hugged the cat,
made supper for the kids,
laid in the grass & watched the clouds,
laid on the beach and
listened to seagulls and waves,
ate tiny doughnuts
and baby cupcakes,
tried not to look at my phone very much,
listened to new music,
scribbled in a journal,
painted a tiny watercolor,
chased the sunset
down dirt roads….

and i think i forgot
that
i
make me happy.

i make myself happy.

i forgot that i kinda like
being on my own…

and…i’m good at it.

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(and this is not to say
that i don’t fully enjoy
and appreciate the time
that i spend with my family
and friends…i really, really do.
just somewhere
along the way,
i lost my way…
and felt that i was missing
something…
but i realize now
that something
can’t be forced.
if it’s gonna happen, it will.
but for now…
there’s no rush.)

:)

Loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better.     

Henry Rollins

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friday i'm in love (the movie & music edition)

So….this is not really a love or a like…
just an observation so far
but Google Play (music)
is switching to YouTube music…
I’m not sure how I feel about it yet.

I listen to music daily..
even more now that I work from home.
It plays in the background all day,
in my car, all night when I sleep.

The only time I don’t listen to music
is when I am going for a walk.
I want to hear “outside” when I am outside.
Also, I am afraid to wear headphones
in public because I am afraid
I will sing out loud
and nobody wants that.

I have different playlists for
activities, moods, holidays, people…
and my tastes range from
a to z
and almost everything in between.

I am currently loving:
♥ angus & julia stone

♥ paper kites

♥ dermot kennedy

which kind of leads to a movie
that has completely stuck in my head
but mostly
because of music….

Rudderless

I adored this movie.
Billy Crudup
Anton Yelchin (who I might have the tiniest crush on)
it was sweet and thoughtful,
funny and interesting
AND OH THE SOUNDTRACK.
they do a cover of
the wheels on the bus
that I absolutely loved….
it’s not quite the same on the OST
but sooooo great in the movie….

and the song
sing along
breaks my heart every time.

I love movies about music…
got any suggestions? :)
or whatcha listening to?

whatcha readin'? 2020 {book 14::goal 30}

This was a great quick summer read.

It carried me along quickly
on a maze of twists and turns,
made me wonder
and try to figure what
was actually going on
and at the same time,
I was able to empathize….
I remember what being a new mom
felt like.
Always worried you were doing the wrong thing,
that you weren’t doing the same thing,
that you were being judged,
that you were screwing your kids up
FOR LIFE….

And really, that fear almost never goes away.

But anyway, I digress.

Great summer read book.
:)

This book is up for grabs if you
have a book you want to trade for it….

5 ♥’s out of 5 ♥♥♥♥♥’s
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