sometimes you just do what you gotta do....

Something has been a little off
with me lately…
and I kept waiting for it to pass
but it’s not.

I feel
a little
loose around the edges,
lost…frayed…
blurry and out of focus.

I am not making to do lists,
I am not getting anything done….
but I am definitely
watching too much tv…
this does not make me happy.

At the end of the work day,
I seem to be struggling
with what to do next…
decisions are always hard for me.
But lately, I feel like I am just
flittering around
never landing on anything
for any amount of time
until I sit down to watch a show….
and that happens too fast and
too frequently.

So.
I made myself a
Jar of Inspiration.
Now, when the work day ends,
if I don’t have a definite plan,
I will pull something from the jar
and do that…
and see where it goes…

The list includes things like:
draw
read
yoga
meditate
dance party
color
make a card
try origami
watercolors
edit
online course
vacuum
random toy photo session
go for a walk
bubble bath
blog

AND
no turning the TV on before
8 PM…

I’m kinda excited about this.
:)

friday i'm in love ♥

friday morning
of a four day weekend
that will include
prepping my garden finally,
shooting a wedding
(am i nervous? eff yes),
getting my first COVID shot
(not sure this has to be mentioned
BUT I HATE NEEDLES MORE THAN
TURNIPS),
checking some ice cream off my list
and whatever else
i can fit into
four June days.

random things i am ♥ing right this second::

♥ this has changed my life…i love corn on the cob!
and i love my microwave. heh. win/win.

♥ i love reading about how other people
relax, practice self care, look after themselves…

♥ a little retail therapy lately that got me this
adorable shirt from ardene…i can’t tell you
how excited I get when i find peter pan collars…
i really am a dork, it’s ok…you can say it. :)
also…not loving my new wrinkly neck but
meh….whatever….if you can’t change it,
learn to accept it…heehee.

♥ i love a different perspective!

♥ i also love little life hacks…

♥ i could watch this alllllll day….and feel so calm…

♥ finally got into this little shop because people messaged me and tagged me in a polka dot dress sale she had :)
sadly that dress was gone but I found another one
that i loved even more, so happy day!!! :) also,
GO VISIT THAT SHOP!! it’s adorable!!! And so much pretty goodness!!

♥ and lilacs. have i mentioned lilacs? cause just…lilacs. :) and polka dots

♥♥♥ grateful thursday ♥♥♥

everyday i journal
and in that journal
i also write a quick and dirty
list of what
i have recently
been grateful for.

here’s a snippet:

♥ lilacs
♥ pug snoring on the couch
♥ sunshine
♥ hot showers
♥ no headache
♥ a new polka dot dress
♥ beaches and books and ponytails
♥ running into my brother at the grocery store
♥ the house smelling like lilacs & baby powder
♥ how a friend made me laugh by saying he
hoped baby powder wasn’t made from babies
♥ garden centers
♥ late night conversations with Cam
♥ unexpected sweet text from Em saying she misses me
♥ a good night sleep
♥ hair in a messy bun
♥ bare legs and bare feet and polka dot flip flops
♥ people that tag me when they see polka dot items on sale.

friday i'm in love ♥

It’s kind of a cool, dark Friday
but I have been up since 6:30
on my day off anyway…
thinking a day like this is a good
time to try to get the house
cleaned up
and the grown up stuff done
so that I can enjoy the rest
of the weekend
if the sun comes out…

Today I am loving ::

♥ smoothies. I never thought that I would
in all honesty. But I have really been liking
them lately…the one I do right now is just
bananas, berries, astro probiotic Kefir
(which until this very moment I thought
kefir was the brand name…I just learned it is not)
and a little bit of yogurt. I am going to
try some new ones though so open to
suggestions! But baby steps on the
healthy part!

♥ that I am finally able to pick lilacs
from my own yard…I have waited for
this for a lonnnnnng time. :)

♥ I love this. I had gone the gray route
for a little bit but then went back to coloring
my hair because I wanted purple…
but COVID has changed my
typical hair routine…my hairdresser retired,
I got worried about box dyes and how
stressed my hair was feeling so I switched to
non- permanent color and splurged on some
hair masks and leave in conditioners….
and honestly, I can’t believe the difference in my hair.
It is softer, and feels less….matted. Which was kinda
terrifying me before.

♥ this is frigging incredible. like…seriously.

♥ Last year, I had good intentions for this
but this year, I am taking it very serious.
I am on an ice cream mission. :)

Happy June Friday!!

whatcha readin'? {goal 35::book 8}

I’ll be honest…
this is my second time reading this book.

I enjoyed it the first time I read it
and found it helpful
in moving forward in
some areas of my life
and I found it interesting.

This time around
it didn’t do as much for me
but it might have been my frame of mind…
and COVID.

But, I’m counting it
even though it was a reread
because I need to get to
my goal of 35
and I make the rules
sooooo….
:)

3♥s out of 5
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