whatcha readin'? {goal 35 :: book 1}

I had no expectations for this book.
I knew nothing about it.
Someone had passed it along to me
and so I gave it a try.

And it was so good.

It is a memoir…it is real
and gritting and
full of emotion
and a-ha moments.

I had a little a-ha moment of my own.
I am very, very bad at
being able to stay mad at anyone.
I just can’t.
And it’s not even that I can’t
stay
mad…but I have a hard time
even getting mad.

I can be rant-y or annoyed,
aggravated, irritated, sour,
cranky, snarky with a person
but I really struggle with actual anger.
I have lost my temper before
but not many times, by my count…
not REALLY lost my temper.

Usually, if someone really makes me mad
I just disappear. I withdraw. Retreat.
Until the bad feelings pass…
which they pretty much always do.

But in the book, the author learns
that she can’t be intimate
until she learns to express anger.

And immediately,
my brain was like “are you listening?
did you hear that? pay attention!”

So anyway,
I haven’t really decided what,
if anything,
to do with that lightbulb moment so…
yeah….this was a really great book. :)

Off to a good start for
whatcha readin’? 2022 edition!

5 ♥♥♥♥♥ out of 5
NEXT UP:: BECOMING - MICHELLE OBAMA

sunday

I could have posted
photos
of snow…

snow behind my car,
under my car,
piled on the deck,
snow banks so high
I can’t throw
hard enough with the shovel
to get rid of it.

Snow getting into
my ears
and freezing in my hair
and melting
into my eyes.

The sound of snowblowers
and shovels…

I could have posted
photos of snow…

but I thought
I would share
some summer flowers
instead.

(captain’s log::day twelve of temporary restrictions complete)

pug-scares

this little guy gave me a bit
of a scare…
he has been a little out of sorts
for a bit,
his back hips seemed stiff.

getting up and down
was getting difficult…
but once he was up, he seemed fine.

then the last couple of days,
he stopped eating.
and slept
alllllllll the time.

i really thought the worst.

i prepared the kids,
he went for a drive with 22
(calling the kids by their age instead of name
is a hard habit to break here….)
to see his dad
just in case
we got bad news this morning.

BUT so far, so good!

Arthritis…meds…
instructions to maybe
stop babying him so much….
and now just fingers crossed
that the blood work comes back ok.

i am
incredibly
relieved.

pugsley, himself, is probably
a little relieved…
the way i was acting around him
the last couple of days,
he probably thought he was dying, too.

:)

(& i have to say…summerside animal hospital
is a fantastic place to deal with.
so kind and non-judgy
even after someone
stress pooped on the floor…)
(not me!!!!)

(captain’s log::day eleven of temporary restrictions complete)

friday i'm in love ♥

another weekend
another snowstorm.

i sit in a quiet, still house
and watch the flakes fall,
silently and quickly,
like there is a mission
to be met…
i feel an impending headache…
heavy and weighing me down.

i feel like there are things
i should be doing
but the day
has slipped away
and i have done
nothing
but watch the snowflakes fall.

and i’m
kinda ok
with that.

FRIDAY I’M IN LOVE ♥

• I know I shared this many, many times in the past but really…does it matter? ♥

• I watched this the other night. Wow.

• sweater dresses

• egg rolls in the deep fryer

• pug snuggles

• this little dolly

(captain’s log::day ten of temporary restrictions complete)

throwback thursday... ♥

i have been writing this blog for a long time.

i like to go back and reread
different years for the month
we are currently in…
it’s a bittersweet exercise.
the kids were little when i
started this
and i thought my
happy marriage would last
forever and i never
thought i would get wrinkles
or a saggy neck…haha.

but life happens.

some of the posts make me
a little sad but mostly,
they make me happy…..
(and make me question my
sanity every now and then as well).

like when I made librarian shout YES
in a library…

this image without an image of my
boy at 10 made my heart warm…

and it’s my mom’s birthday on Saturday,
so this seems right…and I miss him. ♥

(captain’s log::day nine of temporary restrictions complete)