where have i been?

it has been a long time.

what have i been doing?
where have i been?

shooting a wedding...and a family...and 3 best friends
on a beach...
working...planning a new idea for a photo show...
revamping the website...
listening to new music...
barbequing...sitting on park benchs trying to meditate...
and mostly
playing
with
my new toy...




seriously?
i'm in love.

happy Canada Day...a little late!!





the past four days have been awesomely exhausting...
we have:
spent a full day preparing for and enjoying Canada Day festivities,
torn apart, switched and painted two bedrooms,
got 14's tongue pierced,
attended a family barbeque,
did a photo session at the beach and by a graffiti wall,
ate fast food way too much,
drew maple leafs in marker on 14's eyelids,
made family cds for the long drives,
slept restlessly in new rooms,
tripped over books and clothes stacked in the hallway,
chilled on the couch eating creamsicles,
laughed hard and loud and at inappropriate times...

it was a great weekend...
and now we are back to monday
and i wish i could take a little of this past weekend
and keep it in my pocket
so i could take it out every now and then
and be there again...

Happy Canada Day
{and Happy 4th, too!!}

tuesday, tuesday...


5 really good things right off the top of my head
{a tribute to liz elayne}...

1. an impromptu shopping spree

2. a poem surprisingly shared with me by 14
and being blown away by her turns of phrase...

3. panko brie chicken with garlicky ceaser salad and
my adorable sweet husband to share it with...

4. a short week to look forward to

5. how cute ten looks with his surfer shaggy hair cut
and muscle shirt with his dad's hemp necklace...

mmmmm...i love good things.

loud silence

the words that i long to say
just won't roll off my tongue...
instead
they stick like glue
and my heart hurts
because the words that did
come out
feel jagged and sharp and bitter
like bile
and i've hurt you and i've hurt you
my little girl,
my grown up too fast first child...
and i don't know what to say to you
anymore
i don't know how to make it better
when none of my old words will work...
my old words clash against your fragile butterfly wing feelings
they shatter, they smash, they crash to the floor.

and i hear your music come on
as i stand on the other side of your door...