monday morning happiness list



~watching ten and 14 go outside in the rain to dance
around like lunatics with their father, the biggest
lunatic of them all...

~ten and 14 made cards for their dad for father's day...
14's made me cry when i read it...she cut photos and
quotes from comics and books and then added her own
little poem at the end...

you get that from your father,
is one of her favorite lines,
shes daddys little girl,
and in his light she shines,
she strives to be just like him,
...abilities, looks, and speech,
like climbing a tree, from limb to limb,
the top, she will soon reach,
mistakes, tears, and sadness,
all start to fade away,
when he reads the poem,
she wrote him for fathers day.
happy fathers day dad :)


~hot chocolate and cookies while watching
mrs. doubtfire with the kids and S.

~a clean house that smells like vanilla and lemons...

~breaking down saturday morning over something
that has been bothering me for a long time and finally
telling S. about it and crying for about half an hour...
a release i obviously needed. and how sweet he was
about it...

~french toast and maple bacon for breakfast

the last of my snow photos...


i am barely awake
in my husband's housecoat
and barefeet


i sit before a flickering screen
and wait
for words to emerge


this week has been very full and busy
in good ways
but i am starting to think
i can't keep going at this speed...
not the way i'm doing it...
fueling myself on cinnamon rolls
and can after can of diet coke
no water, no healthy food
not sleeping enough...
and i haven't been on the treadmill in a week
{although i did take my camera for a walk wednesday night,
that's gotta count for something?}

oh.
and any suggestions for music?
i LOVE the she and him cd
which i just got and have been playing non-stop...
i'm open to trying just about anything.

{i just realized that there is a NEW she and him cd,
yay!! and did you see the cover...how sssssweeettt is that?
sigh...}

little bits of happiness on wednesday morning...



~fresh strawberries sprinkled with sugar
left just long enough for the sugar to turn red
and juicy and sticky

~finding new music to be inspired by

~sunshine

~feeling drunk with possibility

~an extra long hug from ten last night...
we are going through a bit of a challenging time
so that hug felt good, like old times.

~the light through the leaves outside my window right now

~tickle fights and late night conversations

~positive feedback both at work and on my latest photos
{and i need some beleif in myself right now in both areas
so this was very much appreciated}

~journalling at 6 am...remembering i have this book that i
haven't tried yet...realizing that so many of the things i have
been asking for in my journal have been coming through for
me in a gradual way...

and yes, i am showing winter pictures but i was late getting these
edited and well...i kind of like them...heehee

Creativity Bootcamp Day 2



{i didn't post anything for day 1 yet because
i'm actually still working on it...}


Today's work involved a journal prompt
talking about what do i percieve
an artist
to be?
and do i see myself as one?
and why...or {as the case may be} why not...

i love how she talks about how Webster's
definition of an artist is
"one who creates objects of beauty".
{note there is nothing about by whose standards}...

i felt a small bit of release when i read those words.
and then she went on to give her ideas on it...
a yearning to create
{hey...i have that!}
a wish to produce work that reflects life the way you see it
{hey...i have that, too!}

so this morning i journalled using this as my prompt
and it was good...i found out a lot about myself in the process...
like the fact that as soon as i pictured myself
writing the words "i am an artist"
in my journal, i felt a strong surge of resistance...
a shocked feeling of "you can't write that"
{not even here, not even in my own private journal?
what about on my blog?} to which i felt a much
strong pull of no. you cannot write that.
not on your blog.

so.
it seems as though i have work to do in this area.
but i have some ideas and some plans and a positive mindset,
so half the battle is won.

and if you haven't checked this out yet, you totally should.
i know it is almost done but i'm just starting now and
you could too!

monday morning happiness list


~getting such great responses to my "realization" post...
that really helps to get that positive feedback and to not feel
alone in my ups and downs.

~getting out with the camera again...it has been too long!

~finding this very exciting creativity bootcamp...even though i
am a week behind, i am going to play along from the beginning.
this girl is brilliant...there were things that she wrote about fostering
creativity and the creative cycle that made me feel like she was
talking directly to me....you should definitely check her out!

~feeling a surge of energy coming on...being excited by ideas
and plans and making notes and charging forward. this is good.

~seeing words of mine on a sweet friends blog...made me feel all
warm and gushy inside...and the comments that were left...the
feeling of being "gotten"....it's a good feeling....

happy monday!