It’s a quiet, contemplative friday
in the big orange house….
rain hitting the window,
pretty music playing,
lilac candle lit…

I feel very
sensory
today…slow, calm, thoughtful.
I feel hungry
for things…in a way I can’t explain…
soft, loose clothes…
the smell of wood smoke, bubbly sprite in a fancy glass,
fresh berries, juicy jams on thick buttered toast,
books in a steamy bathtub,
misty rainy walks,
thick body creams that smell like marshmallows,
i want to lose myself in moments
by myself…wandering, wondering
and just absorbing life.

Days like this
I want to shut off social media,
I want to disappear in a little cabin
in the woods…I want to get lost in
music and books and nature.

I have been feeling
conflicted
lately…walking a thin line
between completely happy and content
and being confused and uncertain and
honestly…a little scared
but I am not even sure of what.

Age maybe.

I fear being alone
almost as much as I fear
opening up enough
to allow myself to
let someone else in.

And that
was Friday’s confession.
Heh.

Somedays I come here to write one thing
but something else comes out
and I say eff it and hit publish.

(cause maybe somebody else feels like me)

FRIDAY I’M IN LOVE WITH:

♥ this song. I love that it’s by a band called Whiskey Myers. And I love the twang. :) And the harmonica.
♥ i always love this blog but this post really struck me today.
♥ just a “nice, plain walk” - best advice ever :)
♥ yes please
♥ i got bamboo!! Hmmmmmm.