20 left for Toronto this morning
after a stressful, snowy, slushy 3 am drive
to the airport.

I am always proud of him
for his role in these youth conferences
and happy that he gets to
have these amazing experiences
and meet so many people
and I know it has helped
develop him in ways that
it would have been difficult to
provide here…

but…I miss him.
And I know it’s only a week
and that lots of people go farther away
and for much longer but…

I don’t care.

I still miss him.

Today was a day full of ups and downs…

I am excited about the online courses I am taking/
I am terrified about the online courses I am taking.

A hard decision I made kinda feels right/
the same hard decision makes me a little sad
and not always sure that it was right.

I am happy that spring is coming/
I just remembered my leaky front door.

Up and down.

But instead of ending this post with that…
how about this instead…the other day I ran
into a friend at the grocery store who said
”oh wait! I have something for you!”
and she dug into her bag and found me some smurfs
which ALWAYS makes me happy
but one of them…was smurfette…on a keychain…
and soooooo tiny!!!!
I could barely contain my excitement.
Heeheehee.

(but…truth…i still miss 20).