looking back...

1. My favorite childhood toy was a fisher price "chalet" that had a doorbell
and patio doors. I would spend hours redecorating it.

2. My favorite game was monopoly.

3. The best movie I ever saw as a child was "the champ"...I still cry
if i watch it.

4. I don't do it much but I enjoy yoga.

5. If I could lighten up a little, I'd let myself actually try using the
new sewing machine.

6. If it weren't too late, I'd be a writer.

7. My favorite musical instrument would be the electric guitar
(but I have no idea how to play any instrument).

8. The amount of money I spend on treating myself to
entertainment each month would be about fourty dollars
(and that would be mainly on magazines, heehee).

9. If I weren't so stingy with my artist, I'd buy her some
rubber stamps.

10. Taking time out for myself is something I am learning
to give myself permission to do.

11. I am afraid that if I start dreaming, I will be disappointed.

12. I secretly enjoy reading inspirational quotes.

13. If I had the perfect childhood, I'd have grown up to be me.

14. If it didn't sound so crazy, I'd write or make a children's
book.

15. My parents think artists are ok and interesting but not
realistically in the realm of everyday people and life.

16. My God thinks artists are....? i have no answer. I don't
know how to answer.

17. What makes me feel weird about this recovery is the
language, the flakey spiritual language. I am so much more
"concrete" than that. Alot of the time, I feel like its slipping
out of my mind, that its too abstract for me. I hope I don't
offend anyone with that. I don't find other people's thoughts
"flakey", I just feel weird and not myself, if I do it...I'm
just usually fairly cynical-sounding-on-the-outside. :)

18. Learning to trust myself is probably more of a challenge
than I outwardly (or inwardly for that matter) feel comfortable
admitting.

19. My most "cheer me up" type of music is something hard
and edgy and rough...like linkin park and staind and fuel and
puddle of mudd.

20. My favorite way to dress is edgy, black, layers, vintage, odd
doc martens, a little out there but not enough to embarass my
kids, heehee.

weekly review...

this week i have:

been reading The Map Of Glass which is by jane urquhart...
i adore this book...i have loved everything that she has written.
her writing style is just so
poetic and lyrical
without getting bogged down in detail....

have watched The Constant Gardener, which i liked and yet,
sort of disliked at the same time...i like ralph fiennes, rachel
weisz
is oddly pretty and not pretty...the scene which has
her drying her ass (for lack of a more graceful word) disturbed
me, the scenery is breathtaking, the movie got kind of draggy
in places but then in a couple of places it was very AHA-like.

have managed to knit a dishcloth as taught in my community
school knitting class...just straight knit stitch but got to learn
how to increase and decrease and cast off correctly (which
i also learned i have been doing incorrectly all along)

artist way related i have done all my morning pages but one day,
found out that a fellow blogger/AW-er is also a resident of my
little province (synchronicity?), had a couple of "wow" moments
like an idea for a story, did all the tasks for last week and
finished the reading for this week

added some rubber stamps, watercolors, good pencil crayons,
2 sketchbooks, and some metal wire to my growing collection

helped design a built in shelving unit big enough to house
2 computer areas and (yay) a window seat! in order
to get ready for the birth and arrival of our new dell computer

so,
all in all,
i'm feeling pretty good about this week
and hoping that next week is just as productive...
i have scanned the tasks and am really looking
forward to doing them, very exciting because
i love anything that has to do with my reminiscing
about my childhood...heehee...

i love sundays
:)


falling behind

i was sick with a headache for the whole
of wednesday and so that has sort of set
me behind for the whole artists way...
well...
no, i guess not really...
heh.
that was just one day...
but anyway.

here is some of what i did last night:

20 things i enjoy doing:
writing
reading
yoga
coloring

knitting

bike riding
walking
writing letters
listening to music

hot bubblebaths

playing badminton

reading blogs
gardening

flea markets and crafts

browsing book stores and record stores
gathering ideas for inspiration
making lists

learning something new

jumping on the trampoline

long unplanned drives (especially on dirt roads)(especially in the fall)


pick two to do this week?
yoga
flea market/bookstore (possible artist date also?)

five more lives??? (incorporate into my everyday?)
1. photographer (take more pictures)
2. bar/pub/cafe owner (try new recipes, set dinner table with "ambience" just for us)
3. owner of a totally cool candy store all whimsical and odd (design it for fun, draw it out, name
it, choose orders, name the aisles, that kinda thing)
4. radio announcer on cbc (hmmmmm...pretend to be? i doubt it...)
5. work on sesame street--personal assistant to grover
or ernie and bert or even oscar (make puppets! YAY!)

this picture below
is a puppet i made
while taking my early childhood education course

teehee....

eek. i'm it?

knitandpurrlgrrl has tagged me to do this
so...
here goes...

4 jobs i have held before?
manager of a record store
manager of a tacky t-shirt and jewellry store
hostess manager of mcdonalds restaurant
manager of a bookstore

4 movies i could watch over and over?
school of rock
green card
reality bites
dirty dancing

4 places i have lived?
heh...here
and here
and here
oh...and here.

4 tv shows i watch?
the apprentice when it is on
the amazing race when it is on
happy days on tvland
play with me sesame street

4 vacations i have taken?
hahahahahaha.
cabot trail in cape breton
moncton
new york
south carolina

4 websites i visit every day?
heh...
all of the ones on the side panel...
probably 2-3 times a day...
heh.

4 favorites foods?
grilled chicken salad from Big Burger
chicken stirfrys
toasted tomato sandwiches
oatmeal crisp cereal

4 places i'd rather be?
nowhere really..i'm a big homebody
but i would sooner be doing anything
than my current job...does that count?
no?
hmmmm...disneyworld
the library
italy
ireland

4 bloggers i am tagging?
i don't know...i've seen this on alot of blogs already
and hate to tag anyone who has already been it...
although i don't think i've seen
frankie
or manica do it yet
so...
there ya go...
but just if ya wanna...
i exert no pressure
:)

better late than never...

while i was taking my course
in early childhood care and education
i had four instructors over the course of two years
that have made a great impact on my life today.

i don't think they have even an inkling
of how often they cross my mind in the run
of a day...what would they do in this situation?
what was it they said about this kind of behaviour?
would they be proud of what i have accomplished
or would they think (as i sometimes do)
that i have more to offer
but i am only offering what is expected of me?

when i did my creative heroes for artists way,
they played strong roles.
they made it very clear in my two years there
that they beleived in me, in my potential,
my capabilities, my creativity, my intelligence...
and they challenged me to look deeper inside myself
even though i swore i already knew all there was to know
about the person that is me.

at graduation, one of them told me that they
expected to see a children's book by me
about a princess that wears camoflage
and "kicks ass"
that has become a strong "pick-me-up" tape
playing in my head...

i was reminded the other day
by one of them
of the concept of "throwing it out to the universe"
so,
because of that gentle reminder
and the influence of this list,
here is mine
thrown out the universe, to do with it, what it will...

"eventually" (a life list of goals)
1. learn to play one basic song on a guitar
2. knit a sweater
3. crochet a blanket
4. finish knitting six's blanket
5. skydive
6. go to a sarah mclachlan concert
7. write a story
8. crochet a beaded necklace out of wire
9. get my driver's license
10. bake a cake from scratch
11. sew an apron
12. build something out of wood
13. go to disneyworld
14. go horseback riding
15. make my own paper
16. knit a pair of pippi longstocking socks
17. paint a picture with oil paint
18. read all of the lemony snicket books
19. learn how to burn my own cds
20. make a loaf of bread
21. plant a vegetable garden
22. plan and plant a flower garden
23. learn how to make stained glass
24. make a quilt
25. learn how to hook a rug
26. make a new recipe once a week
27. mail a "real" letter, at least once a week

i reserve the right to add to this list as i see fit...
:)