no more single digits....


today
my boy turns ten.
ten years old.
double digits.
grade 5.
able to hang out by himself
for a bit if i run to the store...
makes his own breakfast....
eats alllll the time...

and yet, he is still so sweet...
cuddling on the couch
talking non stop about lego
teasing his sister
star war fanatic...

and i love you more than words can say.

thanksgiving and gratitude on a friday i'm in love...


it is thanksgiving weekend in Canada
so i felt it was only appropriate to make
my friday i'm in love list
a list of gratitude...

so...in no particular order...what i'm thankful for:

my husband...my kids...my family...my parents...the boys...the wives... the neices and nephews...friends...old and new...
support...i am so lucky for all the support that i get from everyone... no one ever tells me don't try that...you'll regret it...and my husband is always my biggest cheerleader...
our house...our life...we are healthy...happy...safe...
the photography stuff...i am loving this new side of life...
having a driver's license and all the doors it has opened up...
the whole blogging experience, which constantly gives me inspiration and support...
words...music...movies...freedom of speech...inspiration
frothy, creamy hot chocolate...falling leaves...smell of woodsmoke...
email and internet connections...my computer....
good books...
feeling loved...marriage...lasting this long...
yoga...stopping to breathe...remembering to let go...allowing myself to let go...
my 39th year...goals...plans...expectations...putting it out into the universe....wondering what form it will come back in...
growth...learning...moving forward...blue skies...rainbows... sandglass and heart shaped rocks...taking chances...putting myself out there...moving beyond the comfort zone...
being brave.

saying yes.



i am saying yes.

yes to the bridal show...
yes to a christmas craft fair...
yes to trying a new idea with christmas
photo cards for a close friend...
yes to playing with fimo...
yes to yoga...
yes to letting the kids stay up late on
wednesday nights to watch the middle and
modern family...
yes to hot chocolate in a mug with a tree
on it...
yes to christmas magazines and jotting down ideas...
yes to letting go...
yes to living...
yes to life.

yes to take out tonight.

tuesday night...


things are looking up.

i am caught up on almost all of the editing...
people have been contacted, people are happy...
i am happy...

thinking about taking the plunge
and getting a table at a local bridal show...
yet i feel like i am totally not ready
and it's in about a week
but then i think
i know i could pull it together,
i work better under pressure
{or so i always tell myself....}

i said i would decide by tonight,
yet i am still on the fence.
sigh.
do i just go for it...
say the hell with it...
bite the bullet...
run for home...
see what happens?

or do i stay on safe...

{and in my heart, i keep thinking
mondo beyondo, this was going to be your year...
you should be jumping at this...}