friday i'm in love

It’s Friday and I am off until Tuesday…
and then off most of next week, too.
I am feeling a strong
hello summer where have you been vibe
happening in my life
right now.

Today I spent 3 hours on a trail
and just lost myself in flowers
and butterflies and rainstorms
and the smell of sweet clover
and fresh cut grass
and watched the clouds pass by.

And I realized
I am a
meanderer.
Which is not a real word
but it aptly describes who I am
so I am owning it.
I meander. Aimlessly.
I explore. I mosey along….
I lollygag….I putter….
I get lost in the details of bark on a tree
or see dragon heads emerging from clouds
and then I make up stories
in my brain as I
meander.

It’s why I am alone so much. :)

All in all, it was a very good Friday.

THINGS I AM LOVING:

• i love miniatures

• this. i am considering doing this for myself….as I STILL often reach for my no longer existent wedding ring.

• this feels appropriate right now…and honestly, all of the time.

• my perfectly perfect new adventure backpack that got fully broken in on today’s hike

• i know if you follow me anywhere else, you will already know this but THIS BOOK. I am loving this frigging book….I took book breaks while walking today. And also, Finnegan loves the book but was slightly distrustful of the hammock. :D

I kinda feel like this is how I want summer to be…
books, yummy food, hammock, trails, books, photography,
beaches, bare feet, messy hair….just leaning into summer
with all my might.

What’s on your list? ♥

friday i'm in love....

It’s Friday again
which,
I am not sure if you know
or not,
but it most definitely
my most favorite-ist day
of the week.

Even when I have to work.

I still love Friday.

Even when it’s a cool, kinda rainy day.

I still love Friday.

It just makes me happy,
it makes me feel excited
and full of bubbles and ideas and
oh-the-possibilities-that-lie-in-the-weekend-ahead!!!

Even if I have no plans…
sometimes,
ESPECIALLY
if i have no plans….
someone called me an extroverted introvert recently
and that
made a lot
of sense to me.

It felt like i came home. ♥

FRIDAY and I’M LOVING:

♥ this little cartoon which brought me to this which, honestly, brought me to tears. real tears. a good hard cry if i was telling the truth. and i generally always tell the truth.

♥ i might have a small travel bug…

♥ this. 100% this. i got in trouble once for taking “too many selfies”…that i was embarrassing myself. this came at a period in my life when i was probably the lowest i have ever been (except once before, a long time ago) and was really struggling behind closed doors…my outside persona was bright and shiny and selfie-happy but really, i was bit of a broken, sad, turning 50, not-sure-of-who-i-was-anymore on so many levels and trying to piece together the shards of my shattered self confidence after being cheated on at the end of a 20 year marriage…and i was navigating this the only way i knew how. not saying it was the right way. but it was my way. {all this is to say that words sting. even the well-intentioned ones.} the truth is no matter how well we think we know someone, we don’t really know what is going on for them…and honestly…i like selfies. i like to see where i was, who i was, i am ok with my lines and wrinkles and sun spots. they remind me that i laughed a lot and that i lived & loved my life. and that makes me happy.

i want you to take selfies, if you wanna. I want to celebrate your happiness and your good days and help you find your way through the rough patches. i want be your biggest fangirl and your loudest cheerleader. :) no matter how annoying i may be while doing that. Heehee. & if you don’t wanna take them, that’s a-ok, too!

♥ i am not gonna lie (i know, i already covered that above, haha) but i have a super sweet soft spot for Ryan Gosling and i adore Margot Robbie so i kinda can’t wait for this!

♥ my new plants…is it weird that i just want to hang out in here…ALL the time?

♥ finally feeling like i am starting to get the hang of crochet after SO many years of attempts

now i’m off to maybe
paint a random hallway
and turn a bedroom into a
master closet
or a secret reading hideway
or a FORT…
or all of the above.
(did i mention endless possibilities?)

friday i'm in love...(& weirdly not an Easter version...)

I love a long weekend. ♥

I feel a distinct push/pull
in my life this week.
One minute I am hyper focused,
the next I am floundering
around panicking about ants
(so far there have only been a few
but it doesn’t take much to push me to panic mode),
attic pigeons, low oil level in tank
and hoping it will come in time,
and wondering why I can’t keep on top of
literally ANYTHING.

This will pass. I know it will.
Maybe it’s the moon as one friend suggested.
Maybe it’s just hormones.
Maybe it’s just who I am. :)

I am always surprised
to keep learning things about myself
to be honest.
I mean…it seems strange to be surprised
at this stage of the game…

But I recently listened
to a woman talking about her
struggle with depression, anxiety,
adhd and OCD tendencies.
She talked about
how her method/thought process
for laundry sorting
became key to realizing that she
had some level of OCD.

I sort my laundry
the
exact same
way.
and thought that EVERYONE did.

Not that it necessarily means anything
one way or the other,
but it just
surprised me…& made me think…
the things we consider quirks or strategies
may be seen as signs or symptoms of something else
and you just never even considered the idea
because you assumed everyone did it the same
or thought the same or reacted the same or
whatever…

Being a person is interesting. :)

THINGS I AM LOVING:

♥ sunshine & longer days (even it is bringing the ants out)
♥ i finished daisy jones and the six and IT SO DID NOT DISAPPOINT!!!!
♥ i am totally drooling over this sofa.
♥ rewatching the office with my girl. she loves dwight & angela but just love jim and pam.
♥ seeing the kids on my street out playing all day…scooters and bikes and stopping by to pet pugsley…and ask if i know i still have my christmas decorations up….and halloween, too. Heehee. :)
♥ i watched this last night…while home alone….which i will tell you now was not a good time to watch it but it was very, very good.
♥ and april is national poetry month…here you go.

and here’s a doodle of a fruit bowl…just because. :)

friday i'm in love...

it was the first
true friday adventure
i have had
in a while…

there were doughnuts,
dirt roads, diet coke in a can,
singing loud,
snoopy socks, a good book
and a bit of exploration/random driving…

OTHER THINGS I AM LOVING:

♥ made me sad but i can also relate…

♥ realizing i am an INJF

♥ i need this

friday i'm in love...

and it’s friday again.

this week flew by.
i spent a lot of time in the office
instead of working from home
which has it’s own set of pros and cons.

mostly it was a very busy week.
but i got to go for
a beautiful evening beach walk
with a friend
and saw the sunset…
and spent an evening at the
community school banquet
and that was so fun.

if you have not tried community school,
you totally should.
it was a great way to get out of the house
one night a week in the dreaded depths of winter
which is when i really struggle to
connect with people…
i learned a little macrame, had a lot of laughs
and got to enjoy a rousing sing a long
of “wasn’t that a party” at the banquet…
(along with delicious lemon pie)
and won a cat hammock bed! :)

{sidenote:: it’s amazing that your
brain will remember every single word
and inflection of a song you haven’t heard
in decades}

FRIDAY I’M IN LOVE::

♥ oh my heart….i love all of these.

♥ i have read this over and over.

♥ this was mesmerizing…his hair.

♥ my latest IPSY haul

♥ my perpetual candy jar

♥ some time spent at the little blue desk experimenting

happy spring even though we
came into it with a bit of a storm
and a fresh a layer of snow all over…
but the days are brighter and longer
and maybe a touch warmer.

that’s enough for me. ♥