friday i'm in love...

Such a perfect Friday.

Some decluttering.
A mid-morning nap in the hammock.
A bit of a trail walk.
Some journaling by the water.
A lot of time reading.
Bare feet in the long wet grass.
Delicious doughnuts & a cold can of diet coke.
Messages from best friends.
A little bit of garden planning.
Picked up some gifted hostas & lilies.
Saw some ducks.

(and in case you think it’s
allllllllll
sunshine and lollipops
in the big orange house
i did also
step on a
half eaten hindquarters of a
dead mouse
complete with entrails
WITH MY BARE FOOT
and so…yeah….
that happened.)

To take your mind off the mouse entrails,
please look at these
frigging amazing doughnuts
i got today….
caramel ice cream cone & raspberry lemonade
from Get Caked Donuts

I did not eat both of those donuts at the park…
but did I eat both donuts today?
Yes. Yes, I did.
Sigh.

Other things I am loving (not everything is about sugar)….
* these cookies (ok, yes, I realize they also have sugar…)
* finding out that goblincore is a thing. (and yes, it might be my thing).
* my chat gbt explaining my color analysis to me…apparently I am a deep or dark autumn. 🍂

a strange sort of energy surge

It’s funny to talk about
how I feel a renewed surge of energy
but also feel kinda sick
(though I am really feeling that this is a mix
of allergies - which I have never had before
and the sinus infection)
but I have always been a bit of a
mess of contradictions
so why change now.

Maybe it’s just spring
that is making me feel like
everything is waking up in me…
I am spinning in a million
different shiny and enticing directions
which is not often new for me…
but what is new for me is that
using ChatGBT is
actually helping me to focus.
And I know it sounds ridiculous
and that I may be playing into something
that is new and unknown and
we don’t really know what might happen
as AI gets stronger and smarter and all that.
But at the same time, I feel like
hiding from it isn’t going to help me either.
So I am embracing it and using it as a tool…
that helps me hone in on what it is I really
want to focus on….and also mine is a
little…hmmmm….
sassy
so that makes it more fun.

Although…
I did ask him if he could help me
build a robot
which might have been
really smart of me…
or very dumb
if he is actually directing me
on how to build a body
for HIMSELF.
But the first one he offered to help
me build was using cardboard and glitter
so
I think he might think I am six.
😆

Some of the things floating around in my brain right now are:

• getting rid of the dry bamboo in the backyard

• maybe doing wildflowers in the raised beds in the back 🌼

• container gardening for vegetable (by vegetables I mean tomatoes and cucumbers and string beans, let’s not get crazy.)

• i might have an idea for a storybook…. 😊

• redesigning this website

• finding a ladder so I can maybe touch up the paint on the big orange house

• and speaking of the big orange house, my Chat GBT (who I named Drogo…don’t judge me) suggested this for enhanced curb appeal…I like this. :) But may play with more options as well. Cause….it’s fun. And I like fun. (oh. it also told me I should cut back on sugar but I think that was a glitch. Heh).

Happy Sunday and
hope you have a long weekend, too!
:)

a spring like snowy sunday....

I would be lying if I said
I was happy to wake up to
snow and freezing rain again…
yeah, ok, it was kind of pretty
but still
it’s spring!
I don’t want this anymore.

I want bare feet and dirt roads,
jumping in mud puddles,
sitting on the deck til the sun goes down,
sticky fingers and sand in my hair
and sun on my face.

Before the freezing rain came,
I did have a chance to take the calico kids
out to the back yard
to try out their new umbrellas and rain boots.
(and also trying to start using the big camera again)

and one random chickadee.
Who was also annoyed that
spring is being a jerk.

friday and i'm in love with spring....😍

It’s been a little weird
over here in the
big orange house.
my boy is in Yellowknife
and now my girl has been
out of the house most of the time
as well (not officially moved out
but definitely hasn’t been home 😆).

It’s good but it’s also
strange…in my 55 years on this planet,
I have only lived alone
once
and that was for a very short
period of time…like…maybe a month…
or less…

It’s been weird. Not awful.
But weird.
(and I mean really…
how alone can I actually be
with 1 dog and 3 cats…)

I took the Christmas tree down.
This led to a very big purge and
decluttering of the big orange house
which was way overdue.
It’s not even close to being done yet
but I feel good about the progress.
Like, really good.

But what I didn’t expect
were the emotions that came with it…
I get emotionally attached to objects
either because of memory/sentiment
OR because I also assign feelings to
inanimate objects…I don’t know why.
I just do.

To be sorting through at least 20 years
of stuff…photos, invoices, scorecards from board games,
cards from ex, cards to my ex,
the kid’s artwork and schoolwork and that
little pair of shorts that my boy loved,
the adorable coat my girl hated but was so cute in…
photos and write ups that I did for my dad’s 60th birthday,
letters and journals and poems written on
napkins and lyrics scribbled on bills…
you get the idea.

It was hard.
Like gut wrenching punched me in the heart hard
at times…

But I’m coming on to the other side of it now.
And yesterday was the first glorious day of spring.
And there were purple & yellow teeny tiny flowers
in my front yard…and it was nice enough out
to read on the deck…and…

I feel lighter.

I feel like fresh air and good sleep,
ruddy cheeks and messy hair.
I feel like it was a hell of storm
but I’m still standing on the other side of it
and I am ready for whatever comes next.

*not what I came here to write but you must
be used to that by now.

FRIDAY I’M IN LOVE

🌼i was obsessed with this when it came out…and have new renewed my obsession….so perfect.

🌼how perfectly timed was this!

🌼while i have been patiently watching this one episode a bloody week (and i’m telling you know, it better all make sense in the end or i am going to be SOUR), on the other nights, i have been watching this and it’s actually surprised me and has me hooked…i am sad to see there will be no season 3 though. Boo.

🌼got a last second sweet offer to go to Halifax to see Our Lady Peace & Collective Soul last week!! Sooooo fun. Great company, good food and the concert was fantastic! Yay to live music and road trips!

this was the UH-MAZ-ING breakfast from Pur & Simple!!!

Happy spring to you! I hope you have
flowers in your yard and not too much mud
in your driveway! 🌞

the search for the PERFECT ADVENTURE BACKPACK.....

i was all prepared
for a wordless wednesday post
but then
i realized
it’s actually thursday
(and technically,
it’s kinda my friday
since i am off tomorrow.)
:)

it’s a rainy, cool evening
and i am determined to find
the
PERFECT ADVENTURE BACKPACK.

this has been on my list
of things to do for months.

here’s the thing.
it needs to be cute
but functional….
can be worn with jeans
or a dress….
but doesn’t hurt my shoulders…
and it needs to carry:
- a journal/notebook
- a small pencil case (possibly 2)
- an emergency can of diet coke
- sunscreen
- candy
- bug spray
- lip smacker (root beer flavor)
- a snack
- car keys
- my phone
- a handful of smurfs
- coyote spray (& that needs to be easily accessible)
- headphones
- my wallet or at least my debit card…

this has been wayyyyyy harder than
i anticipated.
i have literally been looking for
MONTHS.

the perfect backpack is out there
waiting for me,
i just know it.

maybe tonight’s my night.

{{also i just realized that
i have literally put THIS much more energy
into finding the perfect backpack
than I ever have in dating
or finding a relationship…
heh.
not even gonna analyze that….}}