tuesday truths...

today was kind of an up and down day...

1.
i walked to work
in the misty rain...
but then the sun came out
for the walk home.

2.
emma found out today
that she has been accepted to
a school an hour and a half away...
which is fantastic!!!!!
(but deep down, i feel a little teeny tiny
shard of sadness...my little girl...off on her own...
it kind of makes my heart hurt a little)
but really, i'm proud and happy and excited for her!!!!!
(if it wasn't for just that little itty bit of sad).

3.
and
there is no up and down with this one...
there is just sad.
 

#tbt that hits me right in the heart...

where, where, where has the time gone?

our gap toothed little blonde diehard twisted sister fan
with a mouth full of chewing gum
and heart full of sweetness,
all sassy attitude and devil horns...

our big-headed boy
with the eyes so dark brown they looked black,
pudgy hands and big chubby cheeks,
all rough and tumble
and baby talk...

it blows my mind...it seems like yesterday.

i read somewhere when the kids were little
that the
days are long,
but the years are short...
and it is so gawd damn true
it hurts my heart a little...

but they also make me so unbearably happy today
all kinda grown up and still so sweet, still so funny...
still all devil horns and rough & tumble -
{but now emma has all her teeth
and campbell doesn't fall forward
when running because his head is too heavy}.
:) :) :) :)

 

a perfect mother's day...

this has been a perfect mother's day.
i slept in,
had breakfast made for me,
spent some time finishing up
my "new work/playspace"
and then...got presents!
stirling & campbell got me
the pink and black polka dot rubber boots
that i have been coveting forever
and emma got me
a purple bag
filled with the cutest stuff ever...
kitty cat post it notes,
scented markers shaped like bears,
a twisted fairy tale coloring book...

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and then, we picked up a bucket of KFC
and headed to my mom & dad's for supper...
it's not that often that all
four of us are in the same car
so, that alone, was a great part of my day...

 

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emma fell asleep on the drive back...which didn't stop me from taking selfies with her... :)

there is nothing i like more
than seeing my parents...
making plans to go to cabot trail
this fall,
sharing garden ideas,
eating KFC,
making height jokes at my dad's expense,
talking about when we were small...
this was the best way to finish my mother's day.

if there is anything that my mom taught me
it was that love
is unconditional.
no exceptions, no substitutions,
no excuses, no denying it....
love is unconditional.
no matter what,
i knew they were both not always just
there for us
but behind us every step of the way...
the biggest and best supporters
we would ever have.

happy mother's day, mom!
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
 

wordless wednesday

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tuesday truths...with bullets...

• i am serious.  i need to lose weight. 
  i am not kidding.  this is getting ridiculous. 
  and is making me mad.  and sad. 
  i hate feeling like this about myself. 
  i hate how my clothes fit (read:  don't fit). 
  i hate my lack of energy, my faltering self esteem,
  my staggering lack of commitment. 
  i am not sure what happened. 
  i think it was a combination of the winter-that-never-ended...
  and stress.
  but i am feeling ready to start again...to commit...
  now...
  if i could only find my stupid fitbit.
• i love raspberries
• i love that every time S goes to pick up 19 after work...15 goes along...
  to hide in the back of the car and try to scare her.
• bob's burgers is kind of genius.  there.  i said it.
• i realized tonight that i own no socks. 
  or at least...nothing that matches.
• when i need a moment, i drive to the windmills.
  weirdly, they relax me.
  the slow, constant spinning...

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