tuesday truths...with bullets...
- i am serious. i need to lose weight.
i am not kidding. this is getting ridiculous.
and is making me mad. and sad.
i hate feeling like this about myself.
i hate how my clothes fit (read: don't fit).
i hate my lack of energy, my faltering self esteem,
my staggering lack of commitment.
i am not sure what happened.
i think it was a combination of the winter-that-never-ended...
and stress.
but i am feeling ready to start again...to commit...
now...
if i could only find my stupid fitbit. - i love raspberries
- i love that every time S goes to pick up 19 after work...15 goes along...
to hide in the back of the car and try to scare her. - bob's burgers is kind of genius. there. i said it.
- i realized tonight that i own no socks.
or at least...nothing that matches. - when i need a moment, i drive to the windmills.
weirdly, they relax me.
the slow, constant spinning...
friday i'm in love....
sweet, sunny friday...
i'm still a little uneasy about my little girl who has gone away
but she has been awesome
about texting me frequently, which makes it so much easier for me
she knows what i'm like...
this is what it is like to live in my head.
she texted me when they called them to board the plane,
she texted me when they landed,
she texted me when she found her luggage,
she texted me that she was at swiss chalet drinking long island iced tea,
she texted me when her friend found her,
she texted me when they got to her friend's house.
the next morning, i texted her to ask her if things were good
she replied yep...
i start thinking...that was a short answer.
how do i know it was her...and come to think of it,
the last text she sent me last night was pretty short...
what if it isn't her...what if someone abducted her...and now they
are just answering her phone to buy more time,
to not raise suspicion...
see for yourself....proof of my jump-to-conclusions-brain
so now...that i know that she is all right...ordering from pizza pizza and hanging out
friday i'm in love...
MINIONS!
Inside Out::PIXAR
ladies and gentleman, it's the MUPPETS!!!!!!
these crispy salt & pepper-y chips...i'm addicted...weight loss plan be damned!
catching up on grey's anatomy...sigh
google forms...how did i not know about this! seriously, so awesome...and seriously, i am such a geek. I used this to create a new questionnaire for my wedding clients...and it was so sweet!
seriously, seriously contemplating letting my formerly black hair go silver...this pinterest board is enough to make me commit
and on the same note, if i can be just like her when i grow up, i am totally looking forward to it!
Happy Friday!!!!!
leavin' on a jet plane...
when my girl was little,
she used to cry when that song would play.
yesterday,
i cried in the airport parking lot...
not even cried...i sobbed...
loudly
and somewhat out of control
after dropping my girl off at our tiny little island airport
so she could board a big plane
and fly off to toronto.
alone.
by herself.
first time big adventure.
for two whole weeks.
when it was time to say goodbye
i couldn't speak.
my throat closed over, if i tried to talk
it would have come out as a howl of
please don't go...just stay here...we can have fun...
i'll buy you ice cream!
but i knew that she had to go...
i knew that she was ready, i knew that i was over reacting
i knew that people go on vacations every day,
they take train, planes and automobiles.
they have fun, they learn about new places,
they learn about themselves.
they come back.
they come back.
she'll come back.
but my heart still hurts.
being a parent is hard.