i struggled with writing
friday i’m in love today.

i’m in a slump,
a bit of a black hole
of work and school and laundry
and work and school and bills
and lists of things to be done
and lists of lists so that i
don’t lose track of my lists….

i am not getting out as much…
not because i can’t
but i think because i have to think too hard
about everything….
is this place open, do i need a mask,
are there going to be restrictions, arrows, judge-y people
just waiting for you to make a mistake
and then…
i end up just staying home.

but today, I’m going to force myself
to go out (and no,
not just because i need diet coke, but…
i do need diet coke…heehee)
but because
the only way forward
is to make a step in that direction.

but in keeping with friday i’m in love
here is a quick & dirty list
(noooo. not that kinda dirty. gawd….)

sitting on the deck with a friend while her boy plays ball down the street
mr freezies….usually 5 at a time…and every color is my favorite
while i am eating it…heehee
a text from a friend promising an ice cream date
my study bunny app
tomatoes are growing & i have little teeny tiny cucumbers starting
10 minute dance breaks throughout the day

happy friday!
Right now, I am packing up my camera, cell phone, bug spray,
dairy bar crawl list, a blanket & a book and
making that step forward. :)