this
has been an amazing summer…
like
seriously amazing.
which is hard for me to say
on one hand
because i missed my dad
ferociously
and that caused a lot of
confusing push/pull of emotions
but i assume that is to be expected…
you know you can’t stay where you were
but it’s effing hard to move forward.
the one thing
that does make it tolerable…
or at least helps make it all make
a tiny bit of sense
is knowing that
dad
would have loved hearing
about everything that happened this summer.
that i know for sure….
i know he is cheering me on…as he always has…
pushing me to go and do the things…
ALL the things.
so i did them.
beaches, bonfires, fireworks,
doughnuts, kruffins, ice cream sundaes,
billy idol!!
grew tomatoes, bought a swing,
went to the air show not just once, but twice!!
FINALLY replaced my front door,
climbed every big rock that was in my path,
watched meteor showers,
laughed hard and loud,
sang songs with lines that made me think of him,
told stories about him every
chance i got,
said yes to motorcycle rides
and got to sit in a transfer truck,
looked for sunflower fields, kayaked,
and watched the truck and tractor pulls…
it was an amazing summer…
and it’s not even over yet.
but it is september so
that brings me back to the blog
and to the little blue desk
back to making lists and plans,
blueprints and notes,
scribbles and scrabbles…
i was away from here for a long time…
but
it feels good to be back.
🥰
