almost totally wordless wednesday...but with a few words...

catching up on the huge number of photos
I took this summer and fall…
so will be posting randoms
here and there
as I try to make my way
back to this page…

also…
I think my poor old faithful computer
might be breathing his last breath.

He’s been with me for
about 12 years and has been
a very diligent, hard worker
so I really, really can’t complain.

But it is going to make me very sad.

So now I am in the market for
a new computer…or a laptop…
but the choices,
sweet mother of gawd
there are so many choices
and I have mentioned that I am not
good at choices?
It’s why I can’t eat at Subway
even though I love Subway.
Heh. I wish I was kidding.
I’m not.

Ok. Sorry.
This was not a very
wordless
wednesday.
I’ll try better next week.
:)

wordless wednesday....

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tuesday truths

i love fall.

i really do.
the brilliance of the trees,
the crunch under my feet
of leaves and twigs
snapping and crackling…
the smell of wood smoke in the air
and feeling like
after the go-go-go
panicked frenzy to enjoy
EVERY FRIGGING SECOND OF SUMMER
while it’s here,
now
i can start
to slow down….

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now
i start to give myself permission
to climb into bed
with a mountain
of fuzzy blankets,
some hot chocolate,
and a pile of books….

fall is movies and stories and blanket forts,
trail hikes, if i feel like it, and messy hair
(cause my hat will cover it anyway),
vanilla scented candles,
cinnamon apples, brown sugar on toast…
big thick fuzzy socks (but never in bed!)
and pajamas with hoods…

fall is cozy.

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i love summer.
summer is exciting and exhilarating
and on a deadline
and you can’t waste a second
cause if you blink,
it’s gone.

but fall…
fall is kinda like my mom.
Comforting and sweet and
always makes me feel better.

winter, on the other hand…well….
i kinda hate that guy.
Heh.

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sunday adventures...& a little bit of unexpected truth...

I generally don’t have a car on fridays anymore
so I have to take my adventure days
when I can get them…
this week, it happened to be on sunday.

I took a drive to Bonshaw
and did a little part of the trail there.
Fun fact…when I am on the trail with my camera,
I may be in there for an hour or more
but have only walked for 15 minutes.
Every detail catches me…
I stop for moss and mushrooms,
rotting tree trunks, bright colored leaves
and mud puddles.

Today was no exception.

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The truth is I have been struggling a little bit lately
in an up and down kind of way.
Some days, I am perfectly happy being by myself
(not that I am ever really “by myself”,
I have my amazing kids and family and friends)
but other days, I struggle a teeny tiny bit.

Which is what I love about getting out with my camera.
I can lose myself for hours
looking for angles and light and color and bokeh
and when it all comes together
it just makes me so happy….
like this photo below…I smiled the rest of way down the trail
because I knew I was going to love this one,
I knew I got my “one good shot”.

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and sometimes,
i think….
you have to lose yourself
a little bit in something
in order to find yourself.

When I think back to
where I was a year ago…
well….I don’t even like to think
about this time last year…
things were pretty dark and dreary and sad and scary
but that kind of helps put
my little “down days” into perspective.

It makes me realize how far I have come.

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Honestly…
this is not what I came here to write today
but it’s what came out…
so I am going to go with it
and this time next year,
I can come back again
& see how much farther I have gone.

Forward is forward…even the baby steps…
and if you are struggling with something right now,
go easy on yourself…and know you are not alone either…
:)

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i'm not sure what it is about fall...

but i am incredibly
less productive
in the fall.

i'm good right up until it starts to get
just a little bit dark..
like...6 pm...
and then i just want
pajama pants, some hot chocolate,
my phone and the couch.

i am all about movies and
tv shows and good books
and finding new apps
and naps...so many naps.

as soon as the sun starts to set,
it seems to take any energy reserves
i had left
with it...

hopefully
this is just a phase
and maybe i'll grow out of it.
:)

and really, i'm writing this
in hopes that people are going to say
THAT'S totally normal,
i'm like that, too!
heh.
i'm all about validation