it's been a while since....

i have felt like doing
a friday i’m in love post.

i hadn’t realized
exactly
how
much the roller coaster
of an illness in your family,
in your dad,
who is the stability and rock
in your foundation,
can shake you.

some days
it feels like my foundation
is crumbling
and i am scrambling
in a panic
with mortar and glue,
hammer and nails,
duct tape and hope
to hold it all together…

and some days…
it sticks.
it holds.
and i feel like the breath
i have been holding
hard and rigid in my chest
can release.
my heart
tightly wound and all tied up in a knot
can expand.
my feet back on somewhat solid ground

this is one of those days.
a good day.
a series of good days
after a series of
not so good days
but we won’t focus on those.

so it’s a friday i’m in love kinda day.

♥ 28 (i know i could call them by their real names now but….this is funner) and I watched the crowded room on apple TV (which is an annoying set up, just saying) and it was SO GOOD! I kind of wish I had known it was a book first but still….so good!

♥ oh. this. i loved everything about this.

♥ my new to me egg chair that, yes, went into my living room instead of on my deck which will lead to my next new love….

♥ i have fallen into the “cozy girl” side of tiktok
and i have got to say….i love it. it might bankrupt me…
but i love it. Right now, I am all about candles, low lighting,
blankets, comfort foods (like the homemade tomato soup
i just made), big shlumpy socks (yes, I made that word up),
simmer pots, pillows and pillows and pillows. i am even making
a “cozy girl” playlist. oh….and this simple egg on toast in
the air fryer is making me sooooo happy.

i hope you
are having a
happy, cozy friday….
the sun is shining
and i have a big surprise
to pick up later….
it feels like a damn good day.
♥♥♥♥♥