and then it was sunday and the week was over...

but what a good week it was.

the truth is
sometimes
you get caught up in the
i SHOULD be
doing/wanting/buying/needing/completing
and you
kind of
forget
that you can be
perfectly happy
just
being.

i spent a lot of time
this weekend
just being…
reading in cars by the water,
eating sugary lemon filled doughnuts,
climbing rocks in the cold
on a quiet, barren beach,
binge watching a show that i have been hoarding,
playing with the camera on my phone,
singing loud and driving slow while convincing
myself NOT to try to try the dirt roads yet….
and mostly
just being by myself.

and it was a very good week.

Robin’s lemon filled doughnuts are my favorite.

jellybean got a little dirty…but it’s happy dirt… :)

this show. oh my heart. this show.

and now i am finishing off the week
planning a new week
and drinking caramel drizzle coffee
with lots and lots and lots of hazelnut creamer…

happy april!! let’s see what kinda trouble we can find this month! :)
♥♥♥

where have i been when i haven't been here....

honestly….i am not sure.

i guess we had a late spring
and now that it’s warming up out
i
just
want
to
be
outside…
all the damn time.

i have been cutting the grass
(with the new-to-me lawn mower that I bought all by myself)
and picking at yardwork…
taking the dog for long walks on trails
i have never been down before….
eating sundaes, watching sunsets, reading books on the deck.

i have done a little exploring,
taken some photos but didn’t feel like uploading anything until tonight…

i feel like creatively
i have been stalled…i just wasn’t feeling it….
which i don’t really panic about anymore
because i know it will come back,
it always comes back.

and sure enough, tonight
i found myself getting excited about editing the
photos that have been on my camera for too long…
i am thinking about pulling out the watercolors,
about how to build a giant cardboard castle in my backyard,
wondering if i could do a kid’s art class on saturdays,
thinking about how to build mushrooms and
trying to remember where i put the plans for the robot?

i knew it would come back.
it always comes back.
:)

summer lovin'

i have not been here
very much this summer...

it's hard to make myself come in the house
and type at the computer
when it is so hot and sunny and pretty outside.

summer goes by far too fast.

i find myself panicking as the days
turn into august,
feeling like summer
is slipping through my fingers
like sand
and i want to grab it tight
and fill my pockets
and my shoes,
i want to store it, savor it, hoard it.

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i want to make it last forever.

so i haven't been here much
but i've been writing blog posts
in my head
and taking photos
with the big camera and the little one (my phone)...
i've been reading books
and eating ice cream and taking long walks,
finding new beaches
and driving down endless dirt roads.

hello august.
i am going to try really hard not to think of you
as the end...
but instead, i'm going to try to soak up as much summer
as i can and not stress about the passing of the days.

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