the truth is....

the truth is
i can spend
156.00 dollars
on groceries
and come home
and make a
peanut butter
sandwich.

the truth is
i cut my own hair
recently…
3 times to be exact…
and am not sure
that was a
good thing.

the truth is
i realized today
that i own
a LOT of clothes
and the truth
also is
that i will likely never wear
most of those clothes
again if i won’t be in an
office setting…
which makes me
both happy (i love working from home)
and a little bit sad.

the truth is
i’m not sleeping well.
i’m sleeping a lot
but
not well.

the truth is
i don’t have
any more truths
to share
today.
♥

(captain’s log::day seven of temporary restrictions complete)

tuesday truths...pollyanna-positivity warning ahead...

in an effort to
look at the bright side
of the bubble,
i was thinking that
if more restrictions
HAVE to happen,
i guess january is
better than july.

(i also realize it’s easier
for me to say this
lightly
because i know that
i am not nearly affected as others…
my kids are older,
my work is not terribly affected,
my family are all on the island…
even if i can’t see them
right now
i have seen them recently…
and as of yet,
we have all been lucky.)

(the truth of what others
are facing or have faced
is not lost on me.)

but also in a fit of my usual
pollyanna-positivity
i made myself a list of what i
could do for the rest of january.

• yoga

• meditate

• go through my clothes & purge

• draw

• read books and books

• paint

• experiment with the art supplies i never even opened

• zoom call a friend or two

• chefs plate meals

• plan a bathroom reno

• find 2 screwdrivers and a hammer & make that damn bookshelf

• go for a solo hike

• go for a solo drive & ramble some country roads

• write a short story

• sort and purge photos

• finish atypical

• start yellowstone

• plan my garden

• read some poetry

• social media detox

• write a letter to someone

• color my hair something new

• take an online course

• focus only on positive things; avoid negativity

• vision board

and blog, of course.

so that’s the plan
for january
in the big orange house…
♥♥♥♥♥

tuesday truths...too much truth...but it's tuesday....

the truth is
sometimes
i feel like
maybe i
have become
too happy,
too comfortable,
too content
all on my own.

sometimes
i wonder if
i will ever
be able to fit
another person
into my life
again….
i am just not sure where
or how
or the logistics
or the ramifications…

i am afraid to
upset this
delicate balance
i have built of
being happy
on my own…
(and let’s not lie
i am also afraid
of being hurt,
of confrontation,
of drama,
of other people talking about me,
of perceptions, of judgements,
of hurting someone else,
of someone wanting me to change,
of losing control…)

and i am so happy right now.
i feel like i live in my own little
fragile soap bubble of bliss…
full of candy & ice cream
and doing what i want
when i want
how i want…
full of friends and family,
cats and a pug,
colors and giggles and music…

i am happy.

if i am going to ever be with someone else,
it has to add to equation…not subtract, not divide,
not make me question my worth, my self esteem, my quirks…
and maybe it has to happen accidentally…
you know, like the kind of thing
you don’t plan,
you just slip into it
because it feels right
without trying.

anyway.

that’s my tuesday truth.
i actually came here
to write about spotify
but then this leaked out of my brain
and onto the page
so…this is what you get today.

:)

tuesday truths...

the truth is
we have hit that time of the year
when the
sun fades to darkness
as i hit the end of my workday
and i find that hard…

part of me just wants
blankets and pjs,
books and hot chocolate
or a netflix series i can lose
myself in for hours.

but i have been reviving the
inspiration jar
this last couple of days
(ok…truthfully, just since yesterday)
but honestly,
IT IS SO FUN.

i had kinda forgotten what i
put in there for ideas
so it’s been fun to pull one out
and see how i am going to spend
my time.
i have decided that whatever comes out,
i will spend at least half an hour on
unless i get inspired by it
and then it can be without time limits.

tonight’s was read blogs for inspiration
which then lead to a new blog post
so yay! ♥

(but i can’t lie…
at some point tonight,
there WILL be pjs, blankets & hot chocolate…
that’s a given.)

but on that note…
what have you been reading/watching/listening to
in the early dark hours of evenings?
i need inspiration.
:)

tuesday truths...the one where i babble

the truth is
i have been slipping.

i started january
with big plans
and lists and goals
and i did really well…
and then, i slipped a little.

but now i am getting back
on track…
the days are longer,
the snow is melting,
i am honing my lists
and sharpening my highighters
(ok, well, not really
cause…that’s kinda bad for them)

this means
i am going to try to get back
to the page again…
and out with the camera
and back to the little blue desk
and…
ummmmmm….
so….i might even
be shooting a wedding again!!!
:)

for a sweet girl who has been a
friend of the family
forever…
i couldn’t say no.
but i do feel rusty and nervous…
it’s been a long time.

but if you don’t push yourself,
you stay stuck…
and i don’t like to be stuck.

i feel alive and energetic
and excited…it’s a
good way to feel.
♥♥♥