and 50 before fifty morphs into 50 in my 50's! (i just like lists...)

{cause I am very good at
going easy on myself
and giving myself second
(and third) chances…}

if you have been here for a while,
you know that i started a
50 before 50 list
which changed to 50 - IN - 50 list
but management has decided that
it would be much more prudent,
given the glacial rate i am progressing at,
to change it to….{drumrollllllll}
50 in my 50’s

AND HERE IS WHAT IS LEFT ON THE LIST::

Get a new tattoo (I have a plan for this)
(tandem) skydiving
Province/place I have not yet been
Give blood
Finish Bernadine story (or any story)
Build a robot
Knit a robot
Go sledding
Try rock climbing
Get a passport
Watch all Game of Thrones
Go on a train
Play badminton
Try kickboxing, karate, judo or boxing
Climb a tree
Bake an apple pie
Make a puzzle
Drive (with someone) - motorcycle OR racecar
Paintball
Photo walk
Hit goal weight
Tree-go
Zipline
Rollercoaster
Heavy machinery
Learn how to drive standard
Learn to drywall
Make a calendar
Pop up shop
Etsy refill
Ariel yoga
Make meat pies
Build a snowman

now to stop
dilly-dallying
and actually
CROSS THESE OFF THE LIST….
wanna help?
:)

the 50 before 50 shift....

So.
A long time ago,
I talked about the 50 before 50 list.

And I did a few things off of it…
some of them on purpose,
some totally by happy accident.

And then I woke up one morning
and realized
I turn 50
NEXT WEEK.

Like.
NEXT week.
Like.
TUESDAY.

So
unless
I get a tattoo
and go skydiving
over the weekend
while camping
alone
and with someone else
in Cabot trail
and stop off to give blood
on my way to
play badminton
and somehow
get someone to drive me
in a racecar or on the back of
motorcycle
to paintball after we have done
the zipline
that must be right next
to the rollercoaster…
then maybe I will have hit
my goal weight
from all that activity
and i can celebrate
by baking an effing apple pie
SERIOUSLY WHO MADE THIS LIST.

Heeheehee.

So I have decided to switch it to
the 50 - IN - 50 list.
(I’m old. I can change things to suit myself….
it’s my prerogative, Bobby)

And I am all fired up again
to get things DONE this time.

Feel free to join in the fun…
:)

I am going to see if I can pin the list
to the top of my page…you know,
for accountability…
and my frazzled memory.

50 before 50

i am not gonna lie.
i kinda had a tough weekend…
i don’t usually
feel sorry
for myself
but
this weekend,
well…
the furnace acting up is one thing…
but the furnace
acting up after i just replaced
the stupid oil tank…
and the issue with the furnace
added to the roof leaking
and the downed trees that i still need to move
plus the side door
i need to replace…

well.

the furnace acting up
was just the straw that
might have temporarily broke me.

but….
the good news is…
i feel better now.

first of all, we have a great furnace guy.
he came as soon as he could
and he is coming back tomorrow
and hopefully, we will be all fixed up again
when he leaves.

and today
i wanted to do farm day in the city
but just didn’t have it in me…i was sad and worried and well,
just feeling kinda “i-give-up”-y so
19 spent the day with me…
i had apple picking on my 50 before 50 list
so he totally humored me
(even though I know he definitely had other things
he could have been doing)…and said let’s go.

he reached all the tall apples for me
and made me laugh…
we drove down dirt roads,
took photos of cows,
stopped in to see my parents,
and then went out for supper
(five dollar fill-ups at KFC for all!)

and
by the end of the day
i felt far less “i give up” ish
and much more
grateful
for the things in my life
that really matter.
(and…i can cross apple picking
off my 50 before 50 list!)

♥

friday i'm in love...the weird and random edition

♥i just realized i could probably do a whole album of
middle of the road
photos. I might just do that. :)

♥the northern pikes are playing in moncton.
i just literally belted out teenland just now
and realized i’m just a girl with a problem
(haha…not really, that’s just next in the playlist)

♥i love the internet
i know there is no secret in that.
but i absolutely love the small connections that can be made.
i was talking to someone today that i have not met yet in person,
just in the virtual world….
happy meals became a topic of conversation, as they often do
when conversing with me…and he said “i still have the happy meal
muppet baby toys” I was like, “me too!” and excitedly snapped
a photo of baby gonzo (missing his trike) to show him…
meanwhile…he sends me a photo of ALL FOUR muppet babies
STILL IN THE ORIGINAL PACKAGING….
and didn’t even have to look for them…
had them right there at his fingertips!!
(so then i had to try to one up him with my 119 smurf collection
but, honestly?
i was totally jealous of his muppet babies.)

♥this artist….i am in love with these.

♥this hits home right now…know someone struggling with anxiety?
it’s hard to watch…you feel pretty helpless. This was a good read.

♥i kinda can’t wait for this…and now i want to re-read the book

♥i seriously want to do this…preferably with someone who has
maybe done it before or at least knows what a coywolf is…
but…wild horses, you guys!

♥and i can’t tell you how much i love how many comments,
emails and messages I got about my 50 before 50 post….
that totally made my day. Every time I release something to the universe
via this website or social media, I cringe a little inside thinking
”well. you’ve done it now. people are going to officially think you are weird.”
and then everyone is so sweet which really only encourages me more,
you know that, right? Heehee. But seriously…thank you for that.
:) :) :) :)

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50 before 50....

the weekend dorian
hit PEI
with hurricane force wild winds
and pounding, pouring rain,
i turned 49.

my age has never really bothered me too much.
i have always rounded up by 5 years
because
a) i’m bad at math
b) when i hit the “big” years, it doesn’t even matter to me…
i’m like “meh…i’ve been 50 for five years now”

and, if i am going to be painfully, brutally honest
this past year (or more) has been a little rough.
i could focus on all the ways things are not
where i thought they would be when i hit 50

OR

i can say whatever…and make myself a list…
cause
i love a good list. :)

so i have LESS than one year to do the things on this list…
cause
i also work better under pressure.

THE 50 BEFORE 50 LIST

1. Get a new tattoo

2. Go skydiving (tandem is ok)

3. Visit a province/place I have never been (not on PEI!)

4. Go camping alone

5. Go camping with someone else

6. Cabot Trail

7. Drive in

8. Give blood

9. Go on a road trip

10. Finish the Bernadine story

11. Build a robot

12. Knit a robot

13. Go sledding

14. Try rockclimbing

15. Get a passport

16. Watch all Game of Thrones

17. Go apple picking

18. Go on a train

19. Go to a football game

20. Play badminton

21. Have a sleepover with friends

22. Plant a garden

23. Try kickboxing or karate or judo or something that could give me a belt

24. Climb a tree

25. See a live band

26. Bake an apple pie

27. Start and finish a puzzle

28. Carve a pumpkin

29. Have a bonfire

30. Drive someplace really dark and look at stars

31. Ride on a motorcycle OR in a racecar

32. Paintball

33. Photowalk with other people

34. Hit goal weight

35. Treego

36. Zipline

37. Rollercoaster

38. Drive some kind of heavy machinery

39. Learn to drive standard

40. Learn to drywall

41. Make a calendar

42. Pop up shop

43. Fill my Etsy shop

44. Aerial yoga

45. Kayak

46. Watch the sunrise

47. Make meat pies

48. Hold a baby goat

49. See fireworks

50. Make a snowman