sometimes...

sometimes
i talk
too much…
a lot…
non stop…
i get excited
about all the little things
& i just want
to share
and share
and share some more…

and sometimes…
i don’t want
to talk at all.

i am sleepy
and quiet
and i can’t
find the energy
to get out of
my own way…

maybe both extremes
are ok…
two sides of my tarnished
bent and broken coin…
maybe i should just lean into it
and stop
trying to fight it….
trying to always be
energized and bubbly and creative.

it’s ok to rest, too.

especially on rainy days.
♥

also i seem
to be on a little
fairy kick…
not sure where they are coming from…
but i like that they are visiting
and that they don’t eat all the
candy…just a little bit.

lazy rainy sundaze...

it has been a bit of a
rainy sunday...
the sun seems to be trying to
push its way out of the clouds now
but for most of the day,
i have found myself inside...
with extra time on my hands.

i haven't been doing any doodling.

at first, it was because, a while back,
i had some very strange dizzy spells...
or maybe vertigo...
kind of like hangover bed spins
but without the fun the night before.

eventually, they decreased in severity
but seemed to come back when i would
look down which meant
i couldn't write, doodle and even taking photos
with the big camera was difficult.

i did go to the doctor
but it was about 3 weeks after the worst of it...
she did some neurological tests
and everything seemed to be ok
although i was still getting dizzy quite often at the time.

but...long story short...
i seem to feel fine now!
but then
it was so sunny and warm outside
that i just couldn't seem to make myself
sit inside at the desk and play
until today...

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so here's a little fairy.
:)
i feel a little rusty but also kind of excited to get back to
paper and pen and watercolors again.

also, i am playing along with an instagram challenge
that susannah conway has created
called #augustbreak
which has daily prompts...it's been a long time
since i have done one of these and so far,
i am really enjoying it!
if you are on instagram, check it out!

and...just a few photos from North Rustico...
my sister in law & her husband recently invited us to stay
at a cottage with them for a night or two...
which meant some early morning shots of flowers
(there were other photos taken but alcohol-driven-dance-offs
are not so pretty the next day...)

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and...because today is today...
and this weighs heavy on my mind...
don't drink and drive.
call a cab, a friend, your mom, your friend's mom...
sleep on someone's couch, walk home, hitch a ride...
call your ex, your buddy, the next door neighbor, your mailman...
whatever...
just don't drink and drive.

(i like to remember her best on her birthday...
this day only makes me sad for what could have been...)

so...pilwinkle stopped by...

i was looking for four leaf clovers in the garden
and thought i saw something out of the corner of my eye...
hoping that the smurfs were back,
i checked around the rock
but instead of smurfs...
i found a gnome!!

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he says his name is pilwinkle
but folks just call him pilwinkle...
{which i thought was kind of obvious
but didn't want to be rude}

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he seems a little shy...
and maybe a little odd...his only friend seems to be a little baby bluebird...but...
who am i to judge...heh.

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i'm kind of hoping he will stick around...
maybe the fairy will stop looking so mopey then...
i mean...i know she has broken wings...and feet...
but still.
 

toadstools and tiny houses...

i have officially become a girl-obsessed....
an addict of the itty-bitty...
a fairy garden fanatic.

i spent countless hours this weekend
sorting rocks from my backyard,
washing them and painting them...
sealing in the paint, gluing them together.

i found some tiny houses that i had bought
years ago at Michael's...
so i painted them up, too.

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i have started pinterest boards and
googled tutorials,
drooled over other people's gardens
and drove my family crazy
by randomly yelling out
"ahhhh!  look at this one! LOOK-AT-THIS-ONE! LOOK AT IT!"

i may need help.
a support group.
i'm sure there are others out there...like me...right?