tuesday truths...

I have been trying meditation off and on for a couple of years now.
Sometimes, I stick with it for a week or two,
then I slack off and come back to it again later.

I’ve tried Calm and Headspace and
really liked both of them but,
not enough to pay for them…
(the only app I pay for monthly without question
is Google Play because I need my music…)

And then I found Insight Timer
and I am SERIOUSLY loving it.
I haven’t been using it long but
I love that there are so many options
available to you…
no jumping through hoops,
no limited time offers…
just readily available to you.

This morning I did a 10 minute guided practice
by Jonathan Lehmann
that had music (which I love) and affirmations
(which I don’t normally love…)
but I really, really liked this one.

And I especially liked how he talked about the
quote above from Albert Einstein…
that literally set my mood and intention for the day.

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things that run through my head on a rainy thursday night...

• mermaids

• you better start reading that book club book!

• could i drive a taxi?

• damn it…i forgot about the #100dayproject

• ack! patreon

• i bet i totally could drive a taxi.

• robots

• do i have enough yarn to knit a blanket?

• where did i put the knitting needles…

• july bujo

• oh! july…where am i going to watch the fireworks

• do i remember how to knit

• oh yeah, i was totally going to knit a robot!

• ballet workouts

• tea

• i should watch marie kondo

• or maybe some clint eastwood movies

• goats

• a make your own sundae party would be fun

• art classes for kids? would anyone come?

• can i rent the shop out to someone as a workspace

• oh! i bet i could build a robot in the shop if i knew how to weld!

• note to self - google how to drywall

• sunflowers

• i wish i had a camper van…just a little one…

• tomato plants

• i want to kayak

• i should really learn how to swim

• poetry books

• i should get my bike fixed…

• i need a new raincoat

• oh! i should paint my toenails

• paint…i need to get the watercolors out again….

• mermaids

where have i been when i haven't been here....

honestly….i am not sure.

i guess we had a late spring
and now that it’s warming up out
i
just
want
to
be
outside…
all the damn time.

i have been cutting the grass
(with the new-to-me lawn mower that I bought all by myself)
and picking at yardwork…
taking the dog for long walks on trails
i have never been down before….
eating sundaes, watching sunsets, reading books on the deck.

i have done a little exploring,
taken some photos but didn’t feel like uploading anything until tonight…

i feel like creatively
i have been stalled…i just wasn’t feeling it….
which i don’t really panic about anymore
because i know it will come back,
it always comes back.

and sure enough, tonight
i found myself getting excited about editing the
photos that have been on my camera for too long…
i am thinking about pulling out the watercolors,
about how to build a giant cardboard castle in my backyard,
wondering if i could do a kid’s art class on saturdays,
thinking about how to build mushrooms and
trying to remember where i put the plans for the robot?

i knew it would come back.
it always comes back.
:)

dear candy....i kinda like you...

this candy reminds me
of the little yellow corner store
that used to be
next to my grandparents house…
lois’s
”run over to lois’s and get a can of chicken gravy”
”can i go to lois’s? i have a quarter.”

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this was always my favorite
penny candy
(back when penny candy was really
a penny
and pennies
really existed)…

i got stitches just under my eye
from this penny candy…
my cousin & i found a pop bottle
in the backyard
when i was like…5…
he would throw it & whoever got to to it first
could take it to lois’s….
and me being me…i ran out in front of him
just before he threw it…
it hit me in the face and i had to get stitches…
heeheehee.

(i normally just tell people i got hit the face
with a bottle during a fight…it sounds more interesting.
heh.)

they said my biggest concern
was that my cousin william
wasn’t going to get in trouble…
heeheehee.
he was my favorite.
which is pretty obvious from these photos…heehee

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tuesday truths....the random edition

i went all morning thinking today was Wednesday
it’s not.
it’s Tuesday.
sigh.

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toaster strudels
for supper
is my
new favorite thing.

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my pen bled a little on this card
which made me sad
but the ballerina bunnies?
oh….
they made me incredibly happy!

heeheehee.

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this sunshine just makes me think
of beaches and bare legs,
ice cream sundaes and parades,
birds chirping outside my window,
dirt roads, air shows,
getting lost on hiking trails,
bonfires and music outdoors…
sleeping with the window open,
driving with nowhere to go
and no one expecting me…
sigh.